twenty one :.: joshler

IX

this chapter is tRaSh but at least I didn't delete the book lmao, comment and vote, I love you guys 💜

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(low key smut warning, but like, not really, but a little bit I guess okbye)

"josh."

he doesn't stop at the sound of his name as it rolls breathlessly off of my tongue, followed by a loud moan.

"josh, you have to g-go." my hands clench into fists as they're pinned above my head. the coolness of the wall against the bare skin of my back sends chills through my body. josh's lips caress the skin along my collarbones and throat, sucking bruises into the pale surface.

"I don't want to." he groans, grinding his hips against my own and placing his swollen lips on mine. I moan again as he slides his tongue into my mouth and bites my bottom lip.

"you have to."

he pulls away and releases his grip on my wrists. instead he wraps his arms around my waist and lifts me up, which of course causes me to automatically wrap my legs around him.

"I don't want to. why can't I just stay here with you?" he pouts.

"josh, you're becoming, like, famous. you have to go to your own shows. we're already here, there's no turning back now." I say with a small smile, running my hands through his fading pink hair. his eyes flutter shut momentarily. he then sets me down without a word and just looks into my eyes for a moment.

"do you want your shirt, then?" he asks, picking it up off of the floor. I nod, feeling the heat rise in my cheeks, and I'm not sure why. he hands it to me, smirking.

"okay, now go." I push him out of the door, into the hallway. he looks at me confused.

"you're not coming with me?"

"am I supposed to?" I furrow my eyebrows and he chuckles.

"yes, come on. I want you with me." he grabs my hand, pulling me out of the greenroom and down the hallways to side-stage.

"josh, you literally have two minutes to get out there." I realize as I check the time on my phone. he nods and places a kiss on my forehead.

"okay, wish me luck."

"you don't need it, you'll do perfect." he grins and just like that he's gone. dramatic, tyler. he's literally right out there. halfway through the show, josh's phone vibrates in my pocket. just my luck, the text is from debby. she only asks if she can meet up with him again, which doesn't bother me. I just hope he tells me first.

a second text message comes through and it nearly breaks my heart into a million pieces. I read the message over about fifteen times, taking a very deep breath.

it reads: I got the abortion, and I think I just made the biggest mistake of my life.