My Favorite Mistake (1D / H.S./ Harry Styles)- REVISING

Chapter 37

It's been a month since I moved home. That first week was really rough. Louis called in sick all week to the morning show. I knew it was because of me. We talked every night about it. He'd beg me to come home and I'd decline. Then, we'd both cry. It was a vicious cycle.

We saw each other that first weekend and it was nice. We went on a day trip that was a bit out of the morning show range so we only got stopped once by a fan. He's trying to make it better.

As the weeks have gone on, it has been more and more difficult to see each other without the fandom. He is really starting to resent it, which is what I was trying to avoid. Some of these fans are really nice and ask politely but others just assume that it's okay to barge right in the middle of conversations and such. It's the others that my patience is worn thin and my tolerance is close to zero.

I need more time and I don't want string Louis along in the process. I hope I can pull my head out of my ass soon and get it all figured out.

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It's been three months since I moved out. Louis and I are seeing each other less and less. I think he is losing all patience with me. I don't blame him. We're going out tonight to a comedy event sponsored by the morning show. We'll be spending most of our time backstage and away from most of the fans.

Louis picks me up and we head over. We catch each other up on our week. We don't talk as much as we used to. I have mixed feelings about that. We are strained when we are together. It's like walking in eggshells not exactly knowing where our boundaries are anymore. I miss the way things were and I blame myself completely for that. I've screwed it up.

The show is a lot of fun and it is good hanging out with people I haven't seen in months, like Michael. I guess all the local comedians play softball on Monday afternoon because I got invited to join them. Unfortunately, I have to work.

It's about 1:00 in the morning and Louis and I head out to take me home.

"Sam?"

"Yea."

"Do you know how much longer we are going to go on like this?"

"Louis, I wish I knew. Just when I think I've got it set in my head, your fandom does something rude or disrespectful."

"But it feels like you're punishing me for it."

"I know. I don't mean to. They are a part of you and where you are in your life right now and if I'm going to commit to you, I have to commit to everything that comes with you."

"Sam, would you commit to me? Commit to me for the rest of our lives?"

His hand makes a gesture towards me and it's a light blue box with a white ribbon, from Tiffany's & Co. I open the small box revealing an engagement ring. My jaw hits the floor. What?!

"I thought you never wanted to get married again." I want some clarification because I am completely taking off guard.

"I didn't. But these past few months have made me realize how much I want you in my life forever."

Oh God! I don't want to accept this without me living with him and I can't just say yes and pretend everything is peachy keen. Shit!

"Louis, I can't accept it without us living together again. How about you hold onto that until I do?" I stumble through my words. I really want to say yes but I just can't. Hell! I really don't know what to say at all!

"You know, Sam, I'm not going to wait forever." He's upset and has every right to be. I'm hurting him...again.

"I know." I stare down at my hands.

We pull into my parents' driveway twenty LONG minutes later. He walks me to the front door and kisses me. He grabs my hand and kisses the knuckles.

"Please consider my offer. I love you" He looks at me desperately. Ugh! I wish I could just say yes and live happily ever after.

"I will consider it. I love you too." I respond as he turns and walks back toward his car.

I let out a deep sigh. This should be a lot easier than this. Why can't I just say yes? What the hell is wrong with me?!

A/N- Sorry for such a short chapter but I wanted to get something up today. The next ones will be longer. I promise! Please vote, share, and comment! I LOVE hearing from you! And, as always, thanks for reading! :)