"I said you need to eat, you said I'll feed on your breath"
-We Need to Eat, Kent
Is this actually enjoyable to you? Do you really like being like this? Why won't you just let it go? Why won't you become another person? I know you can, I know you have the resources to get better. So why won't you? Why are you letting this consume you and continue being your identity? Do you like having your throat burn ever second of the day just because you couldn't keep yourself from throwing up? Do you enjoy being lightheaded when you stand up or walk? Do you think it's fun when you can barely move because your muscles seem nonexistent?
Do you honestly want to continue this? Continue feeling guilty because you find joy from things you know you shouldn't? Losing weight when you know you should be gaining, making it back to the state where you can do day long fast, exercising until you burn the impossible, finally seeing the bones in your body after what seems like forever? Do you want to continue finding joy in that?
Do you truly want to continue hiding behind this disorder? You keep blaming everything on your disorder, when in reality it's just you. You can't eat with your friends? Oh, it's just your disorder "acting up", no biggie. It's not that. It's you wanting to continue your bad habits. You're a bitch because you know you can be. "My eating disorder makes me emotional and aggravated!!" You're a liar, that's just who you are.
You honestly deserve all of this, it's your own fault. Don't blame the thing that's killing you, blame yourself. You're carrying this on. You could be getting better. You could be happy. Why won't you be?
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Don't Eat.
Teen FictionDon't eat. I shouldn't. I don't need to. It'll lead me away from perfection and why would I want that? All I have to do is not eat and then I'll be that perfect Barbie that I've always wanted to be. That's not hard to do so why not? What's the worst...
