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Part 4

ZISKA A MONTH LATER: Today was date day. Evan had invited me out to the amusement park where we planned to spend the day together at. During the past month, Evan and i talked a lot, hung out, and had so much fun together. I felt happy, drawn away from the hospital life, and more free. While humming to myself, i picked out some comfortable jeans, a long sleeves shirt, and then tied my hair up. I looked into the mirror and saw my plain face. Maybe a bit of make up should do the trick.

EVAN AT HIS MANSION: I looked into the mirror and groaned. I threw the shirt i was wearing off me and dug to find a better one. I brought out a white shirt with a black outline and put it on. Would she think it's weird? I shook my head, i look cool in this. I looked at myself in the mirror and nodded my head. Now THAT in the mirror was hot. I smiled and headed out.

  Evan took his car over to Ziska's house and waited for her till she came out of her house. Evan stared at her as he realized her make up. She looked so beautiful and charming. 

EVAN: "Let's get going." I say with a smile as i looked forward. She closed the door and i drove off. "So how's your mom and sister?"

 ZISKA: "They're fine....i think." I say with a smile. Of course he didn't have a clue i didn't live with them, since i always made sure to come out of Mom's house when he picked me up. "What about your family?"

  EVAN: "Doing better than ever." i groan. Mother had been really happy since she got her own concert a few days ago and Father had been happy that he reeled in some extra money from the new building he had put up not long ago. "Do you like going on rides a lot?"

 ZISKA: "Y-yeah, but not that much. Makes me nervous." I say with a chuckle. "But i'll ride them with you of course."

  When they arrived, they first attacked the cotton candy stand and then raided the ice cream stand. They played around as Ziska accidently wiped her ice cream on Evan's cheek and he got revenge by doing the same. They chased each other and laughed at corny jokes on the bench for a while before riding the kiddie rides.

ZISKA: This was a new feeling. Around him, i didn't feel impatient about everything, but then again, i was also in a rush. Only in 5 months, it would turn into "next year". I felt a craving for him everyday and every second. Around him, i only felt safe. I felt everything was okay if i only had him. But how would he react if he found out i was a goner in 5 months? He would probably abandon me, feeling his efforts were all pointless. He would feel betrayed that i didn't tell him anything right? Or even angry. With these kinds of thoughts in my mind, the sun began to set, lights began to flicker, and the town city lit up. We entered the ferris wheel and just sat there quietly. Neither one of us said a word. We just watched as the wheel moved and the city glow.

EVAN: I wanted to kiss her. I turn to her as i watch her eyes glow, reflecting the lights. She looked so confusing, it was almost frustrating. I felt my heart beating as i scooted in front of her. She looked at me with a smile but didn't say anything. I couldn't stand it anymore.

 Evan leaned in, put his fingers on her chin, and landed his lips on her lips. First, he softly did it, and then, he went for it. Ziska closed her eyes as she kissed him back while her hands went across his back and his hair. She opened her eyes as tears fell from them. He opened his eyes and felt taken back.

  EVAN: "W-what's wrong?" I ask, frightened, she didn't like that, even though she kissed me back. I felt my heart beating in pain as she got up. I leaned back at the edge of the seat as she straddled me. But it was different from the lustful way others do it. All she did was just sit on my lap, facing me, tears flowing down her face, hands on my face, looking down at me. "What is it..."

ZISKA: "Evan..." I barely manage to say his name. I imagined myself saying i was going to die soon and felt myself choke. I didn't want to see his reaction if i said that. I bit my tongue and felt my heart ache, not because of my disease, but because of the imagination of his face when he finds out i'm as good as dead. I closed my eyes and dug myself into his neck and shoulder. I felt his big warm hand and arms wrap around me, keeping me safe and warm. 

EVAN: For some reason, i also felt like crying. Was Ziska going through something i didn't know of? Did she not want to be with me? Did she hate that kiss so much? Her frail shoulders shook as she cried into my shoulder. "What happened?"

ZISKA: I should just tell him, and get over it. I nodded my head and dug myself deeper into his shoulders. "T-today...was fun..................."

  EVAN: She lied.... i felt my heart burn again as i nodded my head. "Yeah, it was pretty fun." I held her in my arms as she lifted her head. She tilted her to the side and saw we were at the top of the entire wheel. Only look at me please....I faced her head towards me as she looked at me. Her red eyes, tear flooded face, and pained eyes shook my heart. I didn't know what to say, so i let my lips take over. I kissed her with hunger as she kissed me back. Again, tears streamed down her eyes, making the kiss salty, painful, and passionate.

 ZISKA: "Sorry Evan." I mumble at him. "You have to taste salty tears." He laughs a little and smiles. His thumb wipes my tears from my face as i feel a laugh coming up me. He smiles and nods his head.

EVAN: "That's better." I say happy she finally smiled. "Smile, always." She stared at me with big red eyes. I wonder what was in her mind right now, what caused her so much pain, she clearly likes me back, why is she saying sorry, and why does she feel so far but so close? She smiles wider and nods her head.

ZISKA: I looked deep into his pure eyes. I wonder how he sees me, how he would react, how he would respond, how he would feel, what he would do, and so much more. I smiled as i felt my heart rip apart at the future i imagined would happen. He rubbed his nose on mine and smiled. "I...love you."

EVAN: "I love you too." I say with my heart heavy. I felt it flutter as she looked so beautiful at that moment. Her face flushed as she kissed me gently. "One more." I say, greedily.

ZISKA: I stare at him for a second and then kiss him one more time, but before i can pull back, he kisses me harder. I groan a little bit as i feel his tongue move inside my mouth. "E-Evan..."

For the rest of the night when they both got home, they only thought about each other the entire night. Ziska stayed awake in her hospital bed, watching the clouds being outlined by the moon's light, and then Evan who messed with the rubix cube and thought only about Ziska the entire night. 

ZISKA AND EVAN: I wonder...if he/she's sleeping right now................