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Part 13

ZISKA: Pain....Pain....Pain.....I felt my heart buzz as my vision went blurry like it always did. It hurt so much. I was in so much pain. I sat on the roof and looked down at the small blurry people below and then laid down to the sky. All the good memories...they seemed so painful now that I thought about them. I didn't want to disappear. Although I tried so hard over the past two months to be happy with him, I became more...and more....depressed. I remembered the time when I was so reckless because I knew I was going to die. But now, I didn't want to die. I took my medication properly and even stayed still when the doctors came in. But what is this? I didn't want to die. I wanted to live. I felt tears coming out of my eyes as my heart kept pinching me and my vision blurred as my breath quickened. I didn't want to die....I didn't want to die! I cried out loud and held my chest like it would lessen the pain. I didn't know if the pain was because of my heart problems or my emotions. Maybe it was both. But It was just painful.

When Ziska calmed down, she got out her phone and began to type. She stopped and typed again. She thought carefully and typed again. A painful smile appeared as she smiled at herself and read through the long text that she wrote on her notes as she always did when she was feeling sad like her mother used to tell her to write them down.

           " Dear life,                                                                                                                                                                                           You really suck you know? I just want to live. I don't want to die. There are so many things that I want to do....for instance...hmmmm....how about getting married?! Ohhh that would be amazing! I can just imagine it. Me in that beautiful white wedding dress, Evan in that suit....everyone I know waiting to take pictures with us...or maybe just Amanda and Mom haha. Besides getting married, I would also like to bungee jump! Feel the air through my body while falling. Things like riding a horse, eating a simple cheese burger, laughing with family together, playing tag, having children, scolding the children, watching the children jump on Evan's shoulders; attacking him with happiness, so many things I want to do. Right now, I should be happy. Evan's done all he could to make me happy. He's always been there for me and loves me genuinely. I love him. He is my everything. My world. But inevitably, my world is controlled by this sickening disease. I also love Amanda...mom....everyone.... I think I lived a great life. A life without regrets, a perfect life, and a happy loving life................................ I don't want to die still. I know I'm being selfish but I don't want to die. I want to be the only one there is for Evan and I want him to be the only one for me. Life, I don't know if you've done me well or not by giving me Evan and making me leave him so soon. Nonono, I can't be like this. I lived a great life. I'm really happy right now. I'm satisfied. I love Amanda...Mom....and Evan forever. I'm the happiest person alive right now. No doubt. I love the world. These are my feelings."

Ziska got up and stood at the edge of the building roof with her back facing the edge. She smiled at her phone and kissed her note. She had a strong light in her eyes that looked determined. 

   ZISKA: I was going to tell Evan. I was going to tell him everything. I could do it! Now, let's go downstairs and get a taxi to the house to get a hold of Evan. I need to talk to him. Everything. I need to properly tell him that I love him and that he needs to live on. I smiled wide and felt the world fuzz away suddenly as I heard my own heartbeating loudly and quickly.

   ZISKA: If I had one word to describe life, it would be miracle. I opened my eyes and saw myself on top of the waters that reflected the sky above me. Below, I looked closely and saw memories. They were my memories. As I watched the memories, I felt the exact emotions I felt back then. I saw a scene where I was reckless, didn't care for death, and felt bored about everything. I saw a memory of me meeting Evan for the first time. I saw another of us on the ferris wheel. Another when we kissed. Another when we fought. Another when he came to the house. Another when we were on the phone. Memories kept flowing into my mind and emotions poured into my heart. Tears fell down my face like a river as I dropped to my knees. Where was I? I needed to get back down there. To the memories. Where the memories lies. I needed...to get there. I banged my arms on the water hard as I could but it wouldn't budge and I continued to watch the memories with tears running down my face. I didn't want to die.....

EVAN: I screamed. Tears ran down my face quickly like never before. I was on the ground, holding a hand covered in blood. I cried as the people around me called 911 and kept asking what had happened. I took the head of the girl that had blood covered all over her and hugged her. Her eyes were closed, blood ran down her eyelids, her hair was soaking with blood, and her neck was bent in an awkward way. I couldn't stop crying, yelling, groaning. 

The ambulance came, took the girl, and gave Evan a ride. THey took her into the emergency room but only the doctors came out. Evan ran to them and asked if she was alive and they shook their heads. Evan's face dropped as he turned around, kicked the potted plant nearby, screamed, and sat down on the waiting chairs. He leaned down and covered his eyes with his hands.

   "Are you the girl's guardian?"  THey ask as he nods his head. They ask him to follow him and he does that exactly. They brought him to a small room and it had a white blanket on top of a body. Evan approached the body slowly and lifted the cover and saw Ziska's face. Pale and beautiful. 

   Evan filled out a bunch of forms, called Ziska's mother, Amanda, and when they arrived, the room was filled with cries and yelling. 

   Evan hid his tears and ran out of the hospital to head home.

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Music-    Love Story/Where Do I Begin (Piano Cover) - Francis Lai Theme of Movie "Love Story"/ 

Link- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IY1v-FG8fxY

Acc/By- Inspiring Piano by Annillie