Secret Diary of Berlin Su: A Suzuka Nakamoto (SU-METAL) FanFiction

Journal Entry #2: My First Period

YAY!

I am so happy today! Finally I can officially call myself a lady! Maybe not yet a "Super Lady" but a young lady. This morning, I thought I peed myself when I slept and when I looked at my panties, I was shocked because it is something reddish. I screamed so loud which shocked my mother and sisters. I told them that I have blood in my underwear. It's my first menstruation and it's a mark that I'm not a kid anymore. Thanks God I will now be weaned from taking a bath with my dad. He always reasons out that I am still a kid that's why I need to take a bath with him. Though I like it when he scrubs my back but scrubbing his is really so tiring. It really makes me wish I would grow up and not be a kid anymore. Well now, I am not a kid so I can now take a bath all by myself. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

But in spite of this excitement, Himetan, my older sister, told me that having a period is really a nuisance. It would make you moody and gives you abdominal pains sometimes. I am a bit scared of that but as how I could see the models of pads and tampons on TV, they are so happy and very beautiful. This made me want to believe that Himetan was just lying to me.

I also learned from our class that when a woman starts to ovulate and her egg was not fertilized, it will be withered and be flushed out of the woman's reproductive organ together with the blood lining in the ovary. This is what is commonly called as menstrual flow. Menstruation is a sign that a girl can already be pregnant. This fact shivers me. I couldn't imagine myself being pregnant in the near time. I know this neighbor we have who is so pretty but when she becomes pregnant, she becomes ugly. I don't want to become ugly...never >_< But my teacher further explains that for a girl to be pregnant, she must engage into a "sexual contact" with a boy. I don't need to explain it further. I know you already know what I mean. But to be honest, that one gives me relief xD

But I was just curious about it; can a twelve year old girl become pregnant? I am so skeptic about this because I haven't seen any young girls having big tummies because they are pregnant so I searched the internet about the youngest girl who becomes pregnant and to my surprise it was a five years old girl named Lina Medina. I am really shocked with this. It means I could also be pregnant at my age. This makes me feel so vulnerable now. What if some bad guys force me to have sex with them? I've heard a lot of rape cases on TV and it really frightens me.

I told our oldest sister about these fears that I have and she just told me not to worry about it. She advises me to carry myself decently as a girl and to be vigilant about the bad looking strangers I encounter. Not trusting strangers is still the best way to avoid being a victim of rape. Good thing is she gave me an omamori (protection charm) to me. It's a charm to protect me from bad luck and bad people. I am so relieved with this. It feels like I am really secure when I have this amulet ^_^

Well I think that's all for today. I hope the good spirits will guide and protect me from all the harm that I may encounter and that they would not forget that I have a an omamori with me. :)

With Love,

Berlin Su