Secret Diary of Berlin Su: A Suzuka Nakamoto (SU-METAL) FanFiction

Journal Entry #6: SU-METAL

Hello Diary,

Just wanna thank everyone for supporting our Sakura Gakuin Festival. It is very fun and I enjoyed every performances and skits that we do. I can really see from the eyes of the Fukei-sans how they really enjoyed the show especially the Fukei-san in white shirt. I don't really have the chance to know his name but I am really so happy that he enjoyed the show. It is evident by how genki he was in each of our dance performances. Though the guy beside him in black shirt (maybe they are brothers because they have some facial similarities) isn't as genki as him but he was still trying to convince him to enjoy the show. It's not that I don't think the black shirt guy didn't enjoy it (actually I've seen him laugh during our skits) but I think he's the shy type or maybe a new Fukei-san. But to sum it up, I strongly believe that we, Sakura Gakuin, did our best to bring happiness to the Fukei-sans even though sometimes some of us committed some minor mistakes.

Anyway, I just want to talk about our performance as BABYMETAL. Yes I might not say it was a perfect performance but I am so happy that we have done it successfully. At the start, Moa already screwed the opening steps. In me, I was like "Oh shit! Moa is screwed. Maybe, I will screw this up next." But when I started to sing the "Aaaaahhhh" part, all my nervousness was taken away. It was like some unknown spirit took over me when I started singing. We continued dancing and singing and I can see that the Fukei-sans are really enjoying it. I thought they won't because the music is not the usual idol music, it is heavy metal. When we do the part where we fall down, the Fukei-sans we're astonished, I could hear them whispering "What happened" and "Are they ok?" Then we do the waking up face, then stand up. The Fukei-sans laughed at us with that. In me, I want to feel embarrassed but I don't feel that way exactly at that moment. Instead, I feel confidence, the kind of confidence which speaks up that "I am cool" and "Everything will be alright" After the dance; we do the exit pose that was taught to us. "SU-METAL DEATH!" From that time, I realized it was not me performing it but it was SU-METAL. I find it awesome because I've found a different version of me, a cooler version. SU-METAL is the confident girl who believes that she can do everything and thinks that there is no room for mistakes (so different from the clumsy Su-chan). I really admire her for that but at the same time I think this SU-METAL is still me. However, she's not me in the sense that I can't be like her if I'm not on stage and performing a BABYMETAL song. Wow! This is awesome! I want to develop her in me and hopefully she can be of use to me to achieve my dream to become a great performer and bring inspiration to the world just like Shioji. :)

Well anyway... unexpectedly, I've meet Muchii in the festival. He congratulated me for the success of the show especially the part where I played as SU-METAL. I told him it wasn't a big deal and that the cheers of the Fukei-sans encouraged me so much to do my best. He smiled at me back and said he would also be a Fukei-san and will continue to support Sakura Gakuin because I'm part of it. Of course deep inside me I'm so flattered and felt great because one of my crushes appreciated me and our group. LoL. Wait, did I just said "one of my crushes?" hehehehehe

So long diary. I think I shall end here, Bye.

Love,

Berlin Su