Chapter eight: It's nothing, I just lost a few fingers-
"Kayla," I moaned, fighting the voice bringing me from my sleep. "Kayla, your phone is ringing..." The high pitched tone reached my ears, and I huffed, opening my eyes. Cam was bending down beside my bed (which i was curled up tight on top of) so that we were eye level.
I sat up, the covers falling off my shoulders. I stretched and yawned before grabbing the phone and flipping it open.
I expected it to be someone like Piper, or someone else, anyone else, but...
It was my brother.
"Ja-" I didn't even have enough time to say hello before he started spouting information like a news reporter.
"I'm only out for a week. I'm coming to get you, Kayla. I was in an accident so I'm in the hospital now. I'msorry i haven't wrote in a while. The letters wouldn't have gotten to you anyways. Anyways, I have a friend and you can stay until the two of you find another living arrangement. I've thought long and hard about it, Kay. You can't stay with mom anymore, you don't have any support and it's only so long before she gets arrested again and you'll get dumped in some kind of foster care 'till you can get emancipated and..."
"Wait, Jacob, she's... What do you mean... accident?"
"It's nothing, i just lost a few fingers. But the important thing is, I...."
"Wait, what?"
"It's nothing. I was on a ship and it exploaded. Important thing is, is that I have a flight booked and I'll be on my way tomorrow. You're still at Grammy's place, right? You'll be living with Caleb until he goes back to the military and his sister, Genny. It's all..."
"Jake, I don't wanna go,"
"What? Kayla, you have to. Mom isn't a good person to live with and..."
"It's fine. She's hardly left the house since we moved here. I'm getting a job and..."
"Well I'm coming home tomorrow, and if i think you should leave, you're leaving,"
"Jacob that's not fair. It's my life and I'll..."
"You're my little sister. I have to look out for you and if you're not fit to live there than it's my job to take you away from it. Kay, this is for the best. Why are you arguing with me? You never argue. What's gotten into you?"
"You lost the privilege to tell me what to do when you ran away!" I yelled the last part. I felt bad for yelling at Jacob. Really, i did. But it wasn't his place to tell me what to do. If he wanted to treat me like a kid, he lost his chance when he ran from his life here,"
"Look," He started, but I'd heard enough. I hung up the phone. I was so glad to hear from him. I was so glad he was okay, but i couldn't deal with this now.
"Are you okayy?" Cameron asked. I'd forgotten he was there.
"Let's go for a walk,"
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So me and Cam went for a walk on the beach. "It was my brother," I told him. The waves crashed against my ankles. I was wearing a pair of cotton pajama shorts and a white sweater. The moon's reflection rippled in the waves. "He wants to take me somewhere else," My voice cracked. I kicked the sand hard, making it fly up. Too bad it didn't help my anger.
"What do you mean?"
I felt a tear escape and snake it's way down my face. I wiped it away angrily. "He wants to take me away from my mom. He doesn't think i can handle myself. But I've been keeping up with bills! I mean... I'm running out of money but i can get a job! Two if i need to and..."
"Kayla," Cam said. I didn't even realize i was sobbing until Cam pulled me into his arms. I rested my head on his chest and tried to wipe my face with the sleeves of my sweater.
"Sorry," I told him when I could get a coherent sentence out of my mouth.
"You... You don't have to apologize," He said, chuckling. "I'll always be here to talk to. You don't have to apologize for it..." I looked up into his eyes, and he met mine for a moment, and then they flicked away.
When they returned to mine, they were filled with something i didn't quite understand then, but i now understand was desire.
He brought his hand to my face, tucking a stray piece of hair behind me ear, then gently brought his thumb down the length of my cheek bone to my chin, tipping my face upward.
And then we did something really confusing.
We kissed.
I think my heart stopped beating for a moment. All kinds of feelings were rushing over me, mental and physical, and it was beyond overwhelming, so I stopped thinking. I closed my eyes, wrapped my arms around his neck, rose to my tip toes and kissed him back. His other hand fell to the small of my back and hugged me closer.
All the sudden, Cameron pulled away from me. I stumbled forward a bit, but caught myself before i fell. I looked up to Cam with a confused expression. Had i done something wrong?
"I... I have to go," And he ran off. Litterally he ran away.
I felt the tears come back. I suddenly lost the strength in my legs. I fell onto my back in the sand, not really caring that I'd get it all in my hair.
I messed everything up.
Only question is, how?
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(Cam's POV)
"Out of all the stupid shit you've done to yourself, Cam," I told myself. I was laying in my room, and I'd been cussing myself, bitching about running off with my tail bewteen my legs from the girl that I love.
Getting girls? Not a problem. Picking up girls and letting them off easy has always came extremely easy. I'm none for one night stands, and I have a reputation for not making them hate me, because i always make it clear that we're just having sex. We're not friends, we're not dating, we're not going on a date, it's just sex. Then I never look their way again.
Getting the right girl? Someone I've fallen for, and someone that i care about more than i care about myself?
I'm fucked.
I don't like feelings. I don't like dealing with other peoples feeligns, and i definatly don't like dealing with my own. In my opinion, the world would be better without them. Unfortunatly, there was feelings. Other people had feelings, and i had them too. Feelings require change, and i hate change more than i hate feelings.
"Just go tell her you're sorry," I told myself. "Tell her you can't be what she needs you to be,"
I decided it's what i had to do. She deserved beter than me.
