The Unspoken Secrets of A Teenage Girl

Chapter 3: Indenial

Amber was indenial now she ain't know how to feel but she ain't let it bother her, cause she was prepared for that shit. Anytime she seen Shawn she didn't treat him no different she just spoke a hey and a bye and kept it moving. Shawn was confused he thought Amber was mad at him but really she was just minding her damn business.
"Bitch." Amber said to Shay when she walked in third period.
"What?" Shay replied. "Girl how bout Shawn finally admitted he had a baby on the way." Amber said reluctantly. "Girl quit playing what he said like how he said it?" Shay asked anxiously. "Shid I mean basically he just told me I wasn't tripping or nun cause I already knew bout the shit." Amber said. Shay tried to cheer Amber up "Shid fuck that shit it's plenty niggas out here." Shay said, but Amber always acted like that shit ain't bother her. That shit ain't bother her because she knew Shawn would chase her like a dog.
Bitches came from left and right telling Amber what Shawn had coming. But she dodged that shit cause she ain't give a fuck. Amber was popping right now, she just never gave any nigga a chance.

SEPTEMBER came and shit was cordial. Shawn and Amber had an understanding by now. Shawn still pleaded to have her, but she knew that shit wasn't gone work.
Amber was cool about everything and she wasn't really fucking with no nigga to be stressed about. Amber wasn't stun Shawn nomore, not after that talk they had anyway. She still loved him but she couldn't and didn't want to jeopardize what he had going on. Shawn's birthday came and she wished him a Happy Birthday, he was suprised to see she remembered. "Happy Birthday Shawn." she said as she walked past "Thankyou. You remembered?" he asked satisfyingly. "Of course." she said walking off. Amber had came to a conclusion that she wasn't gonna get herself into anymore hardships she couldn't handle and as much as she loved him she had to let that past and hurt go.
Amber was so grown in her mind she was only 17 but she had the mind of a 25 year old. She was mature for it, she'd always been mature. Nobody put anything against her because of what she did and even if she did do anything she was lowkey with every move and no one knew.
Amber was fucking with this nigga name Dee. Dee was older, not alot but a good 2 years ahead of her. She always dated older dudes but that was no problem for her or anybody else cause she was always worried about her business and her business only. Dee was very fond of Amber. He messaged her after he seen a pic he liked or after he'd seen her out somewhere. She never really paid attention to this nigga because she was still stuck on them lames.
Amber seen Dee one night at a football game she all dressed in a tight black and grey dress that was cut up underneath the breast, burgandy hightop converse, hair slicked back in a nice ponytail, she had diamonds in her ears that complimented her outfit and to top it off Burgandy Mac lipstick labeled "hang-up". Amber walked off in the game walking like the bad bitch she was. Turning heads everytime she walked a way. Dee was standing at the bottom of the steps right before you go up the bleachers. Amber completely not worried about no nigga walked right pass his ass only to get called from below. "Aye Amber!" a dike called out to her. Amber turned around and walked down the steps to go approach the dike. "Wassup kilo." she said like a cool ass homegirl Kilo was a dike Amber had went to school with when they were younger. "Wassup what you been up to?" Kilo asked Amber. "Nun much" she replied "Shid you look good." Kilo told Amber. She did a fake laugh on the low disgusted and walked off. Amber walking to the steps again only to feel a motherfucker staring her down like a lion on it's prey. She looked up to see Dee, looking all nervous but eyeballing the hell outta her like he lost some. "Hey" Amber said sarcastically before going up the steps. "Wassup" Dee replied implying a hug. Amber walked off afterwards like nothing happened leaving Dee feeling like he had just won a trophy.
Amber awakened the next morning she had spent the night at her friends. She opened her phone only to find a DM from of course, Dee.. He all in there talking bout he wanna spend time so he told her to come over. Amber procrastinated but she got ready and called her ride. As she pulled up in his driveway she thinking left then thinking right. She don't know how this shit gone go. She got out of the car dressed in a floral halter top that showed her navel and perfectly flat stomach and ripped jeans that hugged her hips as tight as she wanted them. As she walked up to the door he opened it for her. "Hey Ma" Dee said to her. Amber blushing now she stood in the great room waiting for him to show her the way around the house. He led her to the den where he'd been before she arrived. Amber sat down on the end of the sofa right in front of the big screen TV. Dee came and sat beside her, closely beside her. It was kind of akward to Amber how shit was starting off but she kind of was feeling this dude. He reached over and got the remote from beside Amber and asked her what she wanted to watch. "It don't matter." Amber responded giggling. "You so silly ma" Dee said to her. Amber was young but she liked that Ma shit he was calling her. like ok daddy. Dee got closer and closer and everytime he moved it was a gesture that seemed to turn Amber on. She jumped and flinched everytime he leaned or touched her. It had been so long since she'd been touched in any sexual way but she was all about privacy and consistently. "Please resist." she told herself in her mind. "Calm down Ma, ain gone do nun I'm just trynna lay on you." Dee said. Amber laughed it off but she knew what his ass was trynna do and it was working. Amber stayed for a little while until she got uncomfortable. She wasn't about to give it up to him and she meant that she called her ride back up to come get her and she left. Her and Dee conversated a few times after that but it eventually faded... Amber knew that was coming though.