The Unspoken Secrets of A Teenage Girl

Chapter 6: Wrong satisfaction

"Damn im so tired of this shit." Amber said to Michelle on the phone. "Girl just don't worry bout it, it ain't no pressure on that." Michelle said to her. But Amber just could not get over anything when she was upset. She was always overthinking and when she started overthinking she became depressed. If it was only about one thing, she would think about everything all at once. Think about how many times her heart had been broken, how many times she felt unwanted. The only way she would feel better was if she had sex. Sex was always a stress reliever to her. A way to stop thinking about everything, just let loose and have the satisfaction of being relaxed and most of all loved. If the sex was good, it would feel like love to her. She always talked about it, thought about it, but hardly did it only when she felt the need to. But, nobody understood why she loved it so much it was her way of being happy, feeling like herself.
Amber had a argument with her Mom, she was aggravating as hell. She would always question Amber on what time of night she should be in the house. Amber never intended to stay out late as fuck it just happened. Her car was broken, and anytime she went out it was always with a friend. Her mom made a big ass deal about that and Amber got fed the fuck up and the weren't talking for the rest of that day. "Yo ass ain't gone never be successful you always thinking bout bullshit." Amber was tired of hearing that shit. She got tired of motherfuckers telling her she thought she was grown cause hell to her she was. She always had to act older, or be mature her whole life. That's what she was used to.
Amber hit up Aydin, feening for what she felt like she needed. "You busy today?" she asked him. He was a older nigga so she already knew what was up. "Not really gotta work today at 5." Aydin responded. Amber thought about how she was going to make this work. It was 12 o'clock in the afternoon. "Alright, can you come over at 2?" she asked nicely. "Yeah I can, what's the address?" Aydin said. "Ok. 3241 Cannerbery Dr." Amber texted back. Amber was kind of relieved but kind of nervous  at the same time. She took a deep breath and began getting ready. She gathered all her hygiene products, she had to make this the best he's EVER had. She skimmed through her playlist looking for the perfect song to get ready to. She selected a Dej Loaf song and started the shower. She had her best body wash called "Love Spell" from Victoria's Secret. She jumped in the shower and let down her naturally curly hair that was just relieved from her extensions. The shower was running for about an hour. She nicely washed her hair leaving it with the beautiful curl pattern, she brushed it up in a nice high pony. Her skin glowed as she dryed off, her legs shaved so good that there was no hair to be seen or felt. She had shaved her cat to the T, which left it soft, and smooth. She pulled out a little black tanktop that showed just the right amount of her stomach, and some blue cheetah print lounge shorts. She felt good as hell. She was clean and all natural. She wasted no time trying to put on makeup she only filled in her eyebrows which complimented her long lustful eyelashes.  By the time she was done, Aydin had texted her telling her he was on the way. Amber quickly cleaned up behind herself, fixing up the room and the bed.
It was 2:14 p.m Amber phone dinged "I'm outside." that what's the text said. She walked down the hall to the front door, she looked out the window. Aydin pulled up in a clean ass, white camaro with tinted windows. He opened the door slowly getting out the car he was dressed in his work clothing already. He wore a clean ass Bathing Ape shirt, a ripped pair of jeans that looked so damn good on him with his Taxi 12's. Amber couldn't resist how good he looked. She instantly got wet as he approached the door. She opened the door they both smiled at eachother, speechless, but you could tell from their facial expressions that it was about to go down. Amber led him to the bedroom he looked around and stood there. Awaiting for her to give directions. Amber closed the door and demanded him to take off everything. "All this gotta come off." She told him with a fiesty ass attitude. He didn't say anything, he smiled and did just that. He ended  up only dressed in his Ralph Lauren boxers and Ralph Lauren polo labeled socks. Amber eyed him down from his face to his legs. "He so damn sexy, fuck!" She thought to herself. She pushed him down on the bed, undressed herself to only her matching bra and panties. She climbed on top of him, giving him the feeling between clothes. It had been a minute for her so she knew it would hurt her, but she was ready to release all her built up pressure. They began giving eachother oral pleasure. Amber started, of course. She slowly kissed down his chest unto
she met with his penis. She couldn't really get the hang of it, so she stopped before she even started. Aydin then took control he aggressively picked her up off the bed and placed her at the end of it. He settled on his knees and began eating and licking her clit which drove her crazy. She grabbed and pulled his hair gasping for air. It was so good her back arched off the bed and he forced more of her into his mouth. She couldn't take it, but she held it together as much as she could. Aydin then picked her up with his bare hands and gently laid her in the middle if the bed. Amber was loving the affection. The way he touched her, where he touched her, he caressed her body as if he knew she knew needed it.. It wasn't long before they stopped, Amber wasn't ready it hurted to her so they stopped when she was ready. They procrastinated mostly the entire time. Amber laid there in the bed, with a sad look "What's wrong with you?" Aydin asked curious to know if he had dissatisfied her. "Nothing, I'm just finna go ahead and get myself prepared for this" Amber said looking away. "Prepared for what?" He asked confused, while putting back on his clothes "I just know how this about to go." She replied, Amber already had the feeling in her gut that he was about to do some lame shit. That's what she was used to... Aydin was done undressing, he grabbed his keys off the dress and met Amber at the bedroom door he kissed her on the lips slow, and told her he'd text her later. "Ok." she said trying not to sound sad. Amber quickly walked him to the door and shut it right behind him without a bye or even see you later.
She was satisfied but she wondered how shit would be after this. She knew they would look at eachother different now but all she hoped for was to get love in return after she'd proved herself. Not to him. But she wanted to prove herself to herself.. She wanted self confirmation that she was loved and she was beautiful.
After Aydin was gone, Amber showered and fell asleep right afterwards. Silently. The whole house was silent. Exactly what she needed was silence. So many thoughts running through her head. She was nervous. "I wonder will he like me even more now?" "Will we ever move further?" "Will we be more than what we are oneday?".. Amber was confused, but she felt better about herself but the sad part was that she lowered herself to get the satisfaction she needed.