The Unspoken Secrets of A Teenage Girl

Chapter 9:

Amber sat there for a minute, just thinking.. She ain't know what to do, where to go, or who to tell. Shit was getting crazy, but she knew all that fucking was gone lead to some.. but not this. Amber knew she needed to tell somebody she ain't know whether to tell Aydin or her mom. But she knew eventually she would have to tell both. Amber walked out of the store and to the car. She cranked the car up and let it run for about 10 minutes she needed time to think. Her mom was out of town but she felt like she needed to tell her at that moment. She dialed her mom's number the phone rang twice there was no answer. She was kind of relieved because she was nervous anyway. Amber drove off, she didn't know how she was gone tell Aydin what the fuck they done did. She picked up her phone and sent a text. "Where you at?" She said. "Home wassup?" he replied. Amber didn't text back, because she needed to get together how she was gone tell him. She pulled up to his driveway, and parked her car. She picked up the phone and called Aydin's number. "Come outside." she said seriously. Aydin walked out to the car, dressed in some lounge clothes. He still looked sexy as fuck on his chill days. He opened the passenger door and got in, not realizing he was sitting on the CVS bag. "Wassup?" He said curiously. Amber instantly started crying... "I just don't get it, how could this happen, We should've known. We not even in a relationship right now." She sobbed with hell of tears falling down her face. "What you mean? What you saying?" Aydin asked concerned. Aydin looked down in the seat at the CVS bag he opened it and looked in it. He slowly pulled one out with the other four falling on his lap. He looked over at Amber in shock. She steady crying, Aydin confused don't know what to do. "So what you gone do?" Aydin asked her whiping her tears. "I don't know I haven't even told my Mama yet, I tried calling but she ain't answer." She said. "Well ain't neither of us ready for one but we gone get through this together." "What you need me to do?" He said. "just support me.  Don't leave me hanging.." she said pulling herself together. It hurt them both to know that this had happened to them. They both were tied up into themselves, so they knew what they was gone have to do. And even though, they had feelings for eachother the relationship wasn't built strong enough.
Amber left Aydin's house and was on her way home. Aydin texted her as soon as she left "I'm right by your side." He said. Amber ain't text back cause she was still thinking bout her Mama. Her mama called back as soon as she was pulling in her driveway. "Hello?" Amber said trying to sound Okay. "Hey Amber, you called?" Her mama asked. "Yes. Mama I gotta talk to you." Amber parked the car and walked in the house, alone again. "Okay what's wrong?" her Mama asked. "Well, I really don't know how to say it but..." Amber paused. "Ma I'm pregnant." she said and started crying. "How do you know Amber?" Her mama asked. "I took the test and everything, not one but five." Amber replied. "Okay so what you gone do? Who is the father and does he know?" Her mother asked concerned. "Mama I know me and him are both not ready, but it's Aydin from school." she said. "Well do you want to have an abortion?" Her mama asked. "Mama I don't believe in that but right now I feel like I ain't got no choice. We're not even built strong enough at the moment." she said.
Amber told Aydin what her plan was and he agreed. He told her to let him know when she planned on going but she didn't know yet but she knew she had to go as soon as possible. Amber's mother made her an a appointment it was now January 6th. Amber's mother woke her for them to get ready. It was the day, Amber text Aydin letting him know she was going to get the abortion. She was so disappointed in herself knowing what she was about to go do. She couldn't believe it. She poured out her heart in her room before she left. Aydin text her saying he couldn't come because he was at the hospital with a family member. She was relieved about that because she knew it would be even more of a heartbreak for them to go through it together. To see his face, to see him depressed, to see him crying. She was bad enough as it was. Knowing they weren't together kilt her inside, because if they were then she would feel better. Amber turnt her phone off as she arrived to the building. Her heart was broken.... When she got inside she filled out plenty of papers and got ready for her procedure. She cried when she entered the room, she cried the whole time. 

Being that Amber was lacking the need of love that she needed from someone else made her feel bad as hell about what she was doing. This was her first child, her first baby. It felt like her heart was broken into small pieces, she couldn't bare the depression. "I just want to die. I'm so sorry baby, I never meant to hurt you." Amber said crying to herself as if she was talking to her baby. At last, it was time for Amber to go into surgery she walked in slowly, silently crying.. She laid on the bed and closed her eyes and began to pray.