Stand by me

chapter 16

Lauren's POV:

Getting back from the restaurant, we all separated from each other going our own ways, I decided that I wanted to room with Dinah tonight, she's loud and obnoxious but still I love her. That and I figured that by rooming with her it wouldn't be as awkward. Running it by Ally she said that it's ok and that she'll let Demi know the change of plans.

"Hey roomy why the sudden change in sleeping arrangements not that I'm complaining though i don't mind sharing a room with you." Dinah flopped onto the queen size mattress beside me pulling me down from my sitting position to me being practically on top of her.

Ugh Dinah!

"I just wanted too change things up, you know and I'm fabulous so.."

"Nah bish you ain't fabulous I am. I'm queen D all the way. But no seriously we gotta talk about what happened earlier though." Dinah pushed herself onto her side looking at me in complete bewilderment. She won't understand me. No one does.

With that sentence alone I could feel my heart stop. What do I say? Shit shit shit! What do I say? I can't let them know what is really going on. They'll send me back.  No doubt about it. Who wants a crazy 16 year old delinquent. No one.

"Um I don't know, I guess there was just a lot of people and I needed a break so I could breathe." Clearing my throat I tried to keep my voice even as to not allude her into the actual truth of my melt down.

"Laur, next time tell us so that we know and we could have done a different restaurant, Camila is the same way sometimes." Dinah assured me or at least tried to. Dinah kept trying to meet my eyes but I couldn't look at her. I can't lie to her face. That cannot happen. She'll know and they'll send me back.

I flinched with just the mention of the girl that I'm now trying to avoid a bit. Dinah's eyebrow rose when she noticed me stiffening up with just the mention of the girl that has dug herself into my mind never leaving, no matter how hard I tried to just forget about her. "Ok what's up with you and Mila? You guys look at each other weirdly? Do you hate each other?" Dinah's voice hardened just a bit. Fuck! Of course this would make her mad. This is Camila we're talking about. Dinah's bestfriend. Me, I'm just a orphan adopted by a celebrity by chance.

"No! Nothing like that," I was quick to assure, sitting up and turning to Dinah so I could give her my full attention, " I just don't know I was caught off guard that's it." My cheeks were burning all the way to my ears and down to my neck. Dinah smirked, realization clearing her medium brown eyes but not going further in the conversation.

"Whatever you say Lauren."

And with that the conversation ended and Dinah stripped into a shirt that looked older than I did. Blushing I looked away from her when she took her bra off, instead looking at her phone that was chilling on the bed in front of me.  She handed me a shirt too knowing I liked wearing big shirts to bed and a pair of sweats to go along with them.

After we were done changing, Dinah pulled the covers back allowing me to get under them and she came in afterwards cuddling into me so I was the little spoon.

"Lauren you've gotta learn to let us in. We aren't here to hurt you. More than anything we want you to succeed. No  matter what we'll love you. You have us and there is nothing you could do about that. No try to get some sleep, you look exhausted." Dinah reached up turning the light off.  Sighing I tried to get as comfortable as I could.  Getting comfortable I finally was able to calm down but I was still wide awake.

Grabbing my phone off the woodened side table, I turned the screen on going on my twitter to see what the harmonizers were doing. I saw a lot of people asking me to follow them. Making a hashtag called #laurfollowspree I saw so many people hashtagging the fuck out of it. Wow these harmonizers go hard. I started following back the ones that were Ot5 fans, I didn't wanna see any hate tonight trying to stay clear from it all.