Jermaine|
Groaning, I rolled over turning my head, trying to shield my eyes from the sun. I'd just gotten in a couple of hours ago, and I was beyond exhausted. I don't know how much longer I could keep up with this lifestyle. This shit was starting to take a toll on me. All my life consisted of was going to the studio, a couple hours of sleep, promo, and back to the studio. I was bound to get tired. I'd play it off, around my homies, but I don't know if my dream was really worth it. I mean, yeah I make money. My debut album did numbers, surprising the fuck out the critics, so I got money. I blow dough on stupid things, hoes at the strip joint, and on chains. Life is more than money. Well, at least to me it is. Couldn't even tell you the last time, I went to the Ville. I barely even see my mama. I don't be calling like I should, paying her bills ain't enough. She's not going to be around forever. She deserved more from me. I got girls flocking to me. Hoes at every show, looking for a chance to meet, suck, and fuck me. None of that shit, matters when I don't have the girl of my dreams. Aiko ain't even fucking with me. If it ain't about Journee, she don't want to hear it. I can't even blame her. I'm still trying to be a better father, so I made time for me and Journee today. Sighing, I placed my phone on the nightstand. I was suppose to get Jour at two, and it was already twelve. My eyes were closed shut and my hands propped behind my head as I laid. I just needed a couple minutes.
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I grabbed my keys rushing out the door. A couple minutes turned into a hour and a half. I was trying to make it there on time, I don't know, I felt like it would make a good impression. Letting Aiko know I was serious about being in my daughter's life. Either way I knew she was going to say some smart shit. "Fuckkk" I dragged out, once I seen all the traffic on the three o' five. I tapped my fingertips on the steering wheel, peering around at my surroundings. Sighing, I sat back, turning on the radio, placing my head on the headrest. I was too tired. Shaking my head, I turned the radio station, as Power Trip began playing. I don't know, I just couldn't ride to my own music. I was far from being full of myself.
I glanced at the time, before getting out the car. I was mentally preparing myself for Aiko's smart ass mouth. I stepped out the car, pulled my sweats up a bit, and headed into the building. Impatiently, I stood waiting for the slow ass elevator. It looked like an okay place to live, I wasn't trying to get bombarded by fans. Placing a few knocks on the door, I stepped back and waited.
Moments later, the door swung open revealing Aiko with Jour glued to her hip. A smile made its way across my face. I couldn't help it. "About time." Aiko spoke with a bit of an attitude. Sighing, I waved her off, grabbing Journee. "Better late than never." I said following behind her as she lead us to her room. I watched as she placed clothes in the baby bag neatly. "You packing like she staying for days." I stated, grazing my tongue over my bottom lip, watching her intently. "Babies do get dirty, you know." She rolled her eyes. "Here." Aiko said zipping the bag up. "What's the rush?" I peered down at her petite frame. I wasn't trying to leave yet. Even though, Aiko hated me, I loved being in her presence. Shit, truth be told, that feisty shit, turn me on. I wanted to at least be on speaking terms. It was like we couldn't even hold a conversation, and I wasn't feeling that at all. "I got somewhere to be." She shut me down. I wanted to be nosey, but I know I had no place to. We're not together. What I look like questioning her? I lost that right. "Alright, then." I mumbled lowly, somewhat disappointed. I brought her into a side hug, kissing her soft cheek swiftly. I chuckled as she rolled her eyes. "Bye baby." She planted a kiss on Journee's little lips.
I made my way back to the car. Tossing the baby bag in the front seat, I placing Journee in the carseat. It took me and Mike damn near all day to put it in. Neither of us knew what the fuck we was doing. When we finally got it in, we had to take it back out, because it was in backwards. We got it eventually though. I kissed Journee's forehead before closing the door. I hopped in, heading to the zoo.
