Living with the bad boy (Editing)

chapter 21

Blake kept begging me to sleep with him and i have no idea what to say, cause i mean like i want to say yes but what happens if Brady finds out and ends it with me just because i made an stupid decision.

"I dont know blake why do you want me too"

"Because i just want you in my arms tonight and now one elses please"

"Fine but if we get caught were saying that we were just hanging out and fell asleep deal"

"As long as im with you kitten now come on im tired" he said grabbing my wrist gently and guiding me into his room, when we got into his room he shut the door and he took off his shirt and i took off mine which just leaves him shirtless and me in a tank top i laid down on the far right side of the bed away from him but of course he wraps his arm around my waist and pulls me closer to him

"blake what are you doing"

"Shhhhh go to sleep kitten you'll be fine"and with that i started dosing off with him by my side

When i woke up i felt protective arms around me and instantly knew they were Blake's

"Hey blake what time is it"

"About 5:00 why?"

"Just asking"

"Go back to sleep baby"

"Ok" is said ignoring that he called me baby, ive actually kind of got used to the nicknames he's gave me, and with that i went back to sleep in Blakes arms again

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"Awwww mommy come look at this there so cute together" i heard lucy yell but slightly ignoring her, i started to turn around but his arms were to tight around me

"What are you doing" he whispered

"Trying to turn around"i whispered back

"Oh sorry i thought you were trying to leave"he said loosening his arms around me so i could turn around and hid my head in his chest which got him to pull me closer to him

After a few minutes lucy came back and with her mom to i think

"Look i told you mom they look so cute together dont you agree"she said all energetic

"Mom, lucy leave and shut my door now"blake groaned which to me sounded so hot

"Blake be nice and both of you breakfast is done if you would like some"there mom said, but i just said silent and still

"Ya will be down there later but please go your going to wake maria up"

"Ok were going come on lucy lets get you ready for school"and with that they shut the door and left

"You know i was awake the whole time right"

"Ya i just wanted them to leave us alone"

"Idiot, but you know we might want to get up"

"Ya but i dont wanna i like being snuggled up next to you"

"I do to" i said keeping my head in his chest

"You know that i actually have grown real feelings for you kitten"

"Cool"

"Have you grown any feelings for me?"

"Idk, youve hurt me to many times for me too know anymore"

"I understand kitten, but you know i never actually ment to hurt you im the bad boy thats just what i do"

"But you know you can change right?"i asked trying to get out of his grip but not succeeding and it

"Ya but i cant"

"And why cant you"

"Because its hard and i actually like being the schools bad boy"

"So you like hurting me?"

"I didn't say that"

"Well you should know if you stay a bad boy then its going to hurt me alot"

"How"he almost yelled which made me flinch

"Ummmm lets see you just said that im sorry i hurt you im a bad boy so thats what i do"

"Well it is who i am and if you dont like it then leave"he yelled at me and pointed to the door

Out of no where i lost my breath and couldnt breathe, i held my chest and tried to breathe but couldnt

"Hey kitten are you ok?"

"P-p-panic a-attack"i said trying to keep calm but cant

"Fuck maria i dont know what to do"i just sat there trying to keep my breathing steady

"Hey, its okay just breathe and calm down come here" he said standing up and reaching out his arms for me, i stood up and hugged him while crying my eyes out still trying to catch my breath

"Shhh, its going to be okay"he said pulling me closer to him if thats even possible

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Hey guys im so sorry with the wait, i will be updating more frequently, hope you enjoyed