Sex Ed •|L.H|•

Chapter 13

We finished dinner and headed back to the hotel.

"You want to talk or are you going to ignore me?" Luke asked right when we got to our room.

"You. You have explaining to do." I looked at him.

"What do you mean?"

"Your record deal in England?"

"I was going to talk to you about it." His voice was quiet.

"When? The day before you left?"

"Once we knew what we were going to do for sure. I didn't want to tell you yet because we just began talking again. It's not like it matters anyways. You aren't my girlfriend so this doesn't apply to you." For some reason that hurt and it apparently showed. "Hazel."

"No I get it. I'm not your girlfriend. I'm not one of the sluts you date just to get laid. That's really all this is isn't it? Just so Luke fucking Hemmings can get some action in his life."

"Hazel."

"No. I'm done with whatever this is. Screw you." I walked out of the room and down the stairs before he could catch me.

I went outside to across the street. I walked along the beach there and let my mind wonder.

Am I really falling for him? Is that why I'm so defensive and upset over this?

When I finally realize that it was almost dark I went back to the hotel and went to go sleep since the funeral was tomorrow.

When I walk in Luke is sleeping on the floor.  I went to change into pajamas and I went to bed.

Halfway through the night I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so I grabbed the comforter and laid next to Luke.

He looked like he was freezing cold so I put the comforter on him and snuggled close to him. Eventually I fell asleep in his arms.

~

It's been about a month since the funeral. I have started testing and therapy for my depression since I've gotten back.

They have put me on medication that I take everyday when I wake up.

It's been about a month since Luke and I have talked.

After the funeral I didn't talk to him an he got pissed. We ended up leaving and didn't talk to each other at all.

I was so unfocused at work that I was eventually eliminated. The doctor told me I should quit anyways so it didn't bother me.

Luke and his band ended up taking the deal and went to England right when he came back. Danielle stayed with me the entire time.

Today Danielle and I are have a lazy movie day.

"Hey Hazel?" She asked as we were trying to find a new movie.

"Yeah."

"Why were you so upset over Luke leaving? I mean I know you guys were good friends and all but-"

"But I wouldn't mope around about someone like I did." I finished her sentence.

"Yeah."

"You can't tell my mom."

"Yeah?"

"Luke was... Teaching me about sex? We never got to it but I don't know. I started falling for him I think." I finally came out about it and it was honestly a relief.