No Scrubs™ (BxB)

XIX

Sebastian and I talked all night just rekindling our relationship. Until he said something that got me to thinking. Where the fuck is our father. I thought he got security systems and shit. How the fuck does happen.

How can I know if I can still trust Sebastian he could still be with Maurice secretly. He hid that fucking note and that was his fucking mom. What if someone came looking for my dad and got Junior and mama. He's the only one that's not here.

This shit is beyond aggravating. I want somebody to pay for this shit. Everyone close to me failed me and Junior. None of this shit would've happened if Sebastian ain't leave the fucking house that day. Couldn't just cleanup like the rest of us.

Shit went downhill from that day and I took the fucking pill. I could've fucking died right then in there. Why did mama leave me there. Why did I even have to come. I remain conflicted. Part of me wants to believe and trust Sebastian but shits not adding up. Shit even Adriana a fucking suspect.

As much as I don't want to play the blame game how can I not.

"Yo Adrian you listening?" Sebastian asked.

"Fuck no." I say.

"Wassup?" He says.

"I'm thinking about a lot of shit right now." I say.

"Like what." He asks.

"A lot of shit bro, but specifically that day we found Jr." I say, "Where the fuck is dad."

"Nah for real, he was tripping on me for leaving the house to see you whooped my ass and everything like he been here all my life then dipped." He said.

I kinda wish I could've seen it.

"Mama was there?" I ask.

"She helped." He said.

I chuckled a bit, "that's fucked up"

I know he's gonna be mad at me laughing but I don't care.

"Aww." He said.

"What." I say in disgust.

"I ain't seen you laugh in forever you got a beautiful smile like me."

"Get your sentimental ass on bro." I say annoyed.

"Okay big ass words." He says.

"Sentimental not a big word bro." I smiled again.

"I love you bro." He says.

I froze.

He approached me for a hug.

"Stay over there." I say rolling away from him.

"Say it back, please." He said teary eyed.

"Fine. I love you too uglass." I say rolling away.

He hugged me any way.

I put my feet up to try to push him away.  They rose but quickly fell back down.

"Yooooo my foot." I say shocked.

"Do it again."  He says

"I don't think I can." I say.

I tried to lift both legs again I was able to Bend my knee.

"Oh shit you're gonna walk again." He says proudly.

He gave me another hug then began crying, "Yo I'm a fucked up ass big brother. This shit is all my fucking fault. Had I just listened to you the first time mama would still be here and we would still have a place to live. My soul literally fucking bro it's empty. I don't deserve to be here. I want you to know you're strong as fuck and I don't deserve you.  You're the smartest person I know, you're the strongest person I know, anything you need from me I got you you won't ever have to ask me twice. I'm such a fucking dumbass I always fuck shit up for everybody. That should've been me on that floor instead of mama.  Then of course  I kept the fucking note like the dumbass I am. I can't look at Junior and tell him his mom is dead. That would break his innocent heart he's too young to even understand. Everything that has happened is literally because of me and could've been prevented. Y'all are the only two people keeping me here right now.  I thought about ending it a couple times before but never felt it as strongly as I do now." He said soaking my shirt with his tears.

I began to cry as well.

"I forgive you Sebastian, you're human you made a mistake. It's not all your fault. Despite everything I am still grateful for you. Even when we don't get along we still try to look out for each other and I appreciate that. Whatever it is we can get through it together. It takes a real one to own your mistakes I appreciate that. I spent a lot of time hating you I wanna move past that."  I say truthfully.

I think we cried ourselves to sleep that night. We shared the same bed which we haven't done in tears. It was truly therapeutic. It's moments like this that really matter.

As the years went on our relationship improved drastically. Sebastian got a good paying legal job and a little while after that I began physical therapy regaining full strength in my legs. Maurice is locked up for life and that's all that matters.

Melvin and I keep in contact. I'm back in school taking dual credit classes on track to graduate second semester my junior year of high school.

I decided I was going to college to be an attorney. I wanted to help someone like Melvin helped me through that rough time in our lives. Mamas funeral was rough on junior but he's doing much better now since we decided to see a therapist with him.

We all live together in a spacious condo and have our own bedroom. I have yet to hear from our bitch ass dad. How do you fail your kids three different times. Sebastian helped me buy a car. Adriana plays basketball professionally now we don't talk as much but she's good people.

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