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xi problematic staring

"Let's us take a moment and let realization take its toll."

"You're a loser Laura. "

"I wasn't exactly trying to win anything,  Connor. " I stretch my legs, checking my face in the mirror.

I'm a mess.

"Then what are you planning to do after you're done stalking this guy? " "What are you going to do with life. "
Connor props his feet on the recliner smirking a bit.

I haven't even had to courage to truly focus on him.

"Move on with life,  work on my degree,  you know fulfill that life long of becoming a hobo I guess? "
I chuckle slightly.

Connor groans.

"Laura,  my sweet, pumpkin pie, honey bunch, don't act like becoming a hobo is the one dream  you want to fulfill in life. " "You're smart kid I believe in you, but this pretty boy has got you all messed up in the head. "

"I'm perfectly capable of thinking my own thoughts and yeah maybe one I'm done with my bachelor degree I can become a hobo that writes shitty books.

"Ms. Thinking on my own, my ass how many times has he corrupted your thoughts this week? "

"Well, you know-  I'm  just a mess,  Connor, a mess of an exhausted college student that only survives on black coffee, poetic deaths,  and the beauty in the world. "

"I just care too much. " "Maybe I need to stop dreaming so big and focus on the small things. "

No Laura, never stop dreaming.  I don't want that.  You don't want that.

Forget about the stupid little things.

You're life is just one big picture.

You need to live it to the highest definition..

Connor is now sitting up in the chair while I look down at my feet.

"That's the thing every thing is just one blur and I still don't know what the hell I'm  doing with my life, but maybe he's a distraction.  His eyes are so intense.  I can't help but to get list.  I've  been lost for awhile now-

Wait,  wait are you really ranting about the boy's eyes what the hell, Laura,  what do you see in him?  You barely know him;  he's a stranger to you. "

"That's the thing!!!  I want to know more. His eyes tell so many stories that it almost sounds crazy, but the color is so rich.  I don't  know if they are brown,  green,  blue,  yellow.

He's a fucking rainbow and I want to see it.  All of it.  Every aspect of him.
It seems o cliché maybe I just have a staring problem.

"Right,  "a staring problem. " ,you seemed deprived.  "

"Ugh Connor,  get out of my apartment, if you are shame my eye kink.  " I sit down after pacing for awhile.

"Eye kink,  more like daddy kink if you know what I'm saying.

"Connor! I swear to God,  I will eviscerate you if you say one more suggestive thing.  I punch him the shoulder.

"Hey,  hey,  don't  blame me you brought up eye sex with me first, Laura."

"Mmmm." I'm hungary ."

"That was random,way to change the topic."

"But I am...." I whine.

"Order a pizza then lazy ass."
Connor snickers.

I'm a poor peasant how do you expect me to  pay."

"I'll pay for you."

"Too kind, good sir." Let me see your phone."

"No mushrooms!!" Connor yells.

"I would never."

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"Pizza time pizza time it's pizza time!! Oh yeah!!" Krusty Krab pizza is the pizza.  Is the the pizza for you and me.

"Laura,  go answer the door and shut up. "

"Pshh rude. "

"Okay,  I have two meat lovers pizzas and cinnamon knots with a side of ranch. -

"Laura? "

"Yes- oh uh- ummm- hi. "

You have to stop staring.
Say something  else.  Anything. 

Idiot. You're  making this awkward.  I hate human interaction.

"Right so that will be $19.89 for your total costs. "

Oh  yeah.  Pay the man Laura. I'm literally shaking right now.  I can't move.

"You okay? "

"I really should stop staring at you. " I speak out loud.

"What? " Ross asks

"What to your what? "

"What?".

Oh my God here's your money,  gotta blast. "

"Laura - I -"

"Gotta blast?  Really Laura? "

I groan hitting my head against he wall.

"Shut up,  Connor. "

What took so long it was pretty boy again wasn't  it? " I can hear the smirk traced in Connor's voice.

"I just have a minor staring problem. "That's all really. "

Just average problematic staring.

Not that I mind causing  a problem.

I let a breath go.

"Let us eat. "

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hi,  so i'm not dead.  on the outside at least.  I hope you enjoyed this chapter and comment,  vote follow. ✔彡☆♡★