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viii different colors

a:n  . Erm excuse a bit of a rant kinda fangirling.. okay so wattpad was  really weird I had to publish last chapter two times. I was getting no votes nor comments and I was like.. "I know I was bad at writing but I thought you like this book?' Yeah I was all like bummer. But anyways I fixed and I got some votes! Thanks ≤3
So I ran across Hasley .. Don't get me started on how her song "colors" first this chapter so well.. it might be a bit longer.. I struggle to choose the song betwenn this one up top^^ or walk the moon. "Different colors" I hope you took the time to read this long author note and now you may enjoy this extended chapter... wait. I have a phan book out.. slide over to my page and check it out, yeah? No. Okay.. read on..

Laura

Do you know the total capacity of feelings a human being can create? Some feelings are unknown to one's being and can not,  without a doubt be unaccounted for as if they are hidden and the realization is too late. Some can be seen like tears sliding onto your cheeks, or that quizzical,  eyebrow furrowing when you're confused. Feelings can be simple yet complex at the same time, which makes them confusing to us. Every feeling is different as if they are colored  coded. Why don't  we understand  feelings like colors? Color makes things vibrate, easy to see. Feelings are  dull grey and basically black holes of our souls. However  along the way find specks of yellow,  stars perhaps, more like happiness. That is if you try to search for that color in your life. Some don't  see color at all they physically  can't.  However  that doesn't  mean they don't  try.
The expression "Why so blue?", comes from the feeling of sadness. Why do we wear black at funerals? Black represents  death. In a way black and blue correspond  together.   Every emotion has a meaning such as, envy, green. Envy is different  from Jealousy.  Envy is wanting something you can't have."I envy you for getting the last concert tickets. " "They should have been mine." Except they aren't yours. That is envy talking. Jealousy on the other hand, can tear something apart. Something mended that shouldn't  be torn are taken for granted with out a second or remorse. A jealous  boyfriend type situation. I'm  not saying girls can't  get jealous.  Basically, it is fair game, but a girl could start world war III. It's  our nature  as humans and guys react the same way. You drop everything you know about common sense over one small thing. Emotions take control and it's over with. You drop a notebook or something a guy comes up to help you and with your boyfriend awkwardly watching in the distance , the closeness of the stranger makes him red in the face. Later he starts to ignore  you or worse case scenario snap at you. Then you threaten to leave his ass for over reacting. Then he clings onto you because he doesn't  want to feel loss,  just yet.  Because let's  face it, there is enough lost things in the world. The "I'm worries turn into pity and the cycle continues ,  but both envy and jealousy are different,  yet they both remain green. Emotions are like big bubbles of awkward. Don't  know what exactly  to feel and certainly don't  know how to react . It makes me think, talking about color and emotion, almost reminds me that he doesn't  seem any different from other guys. Maybe I'm  just a mess who fell for his eyes. It's  been two weeks..  He seems like a one who leaves or maybe he has been left. He could be a figment of rainbow and it makes me want to find the end.
I was the one who walked away.
How can I not date a guy and be,so confused?
As I think more and more.
I am colored blind.
I see, grey
I feel, blue.
And I am at my end.
I can't  comprehend why.
I see different colors..
My sky is red not blue.
And I'm  still wondering if his sky is too.. different colors...

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A:N
You guys know Laura is thinking about Ross when she refers to he right? Please play the song. ;)