I Still Love You - A Backstage Milya Fanfic

Chapter 1: Back to Keaton

WARNING: This book spoils part of episode 30! AGAIN IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS PLEASE LEAVE, thank you.

So anyways, for those of you who aren't caught up to episode 30, in episode 29 Miles and Julie almost kissed, and Miles felt really bad about it, so in episode 30 he told Alya about it, and she broke up with him because she thought he was distracting her from her music. She said something like "You mean everything to me Miles, and I think that's the problem." which actually brought me to tears, like I was full on sobbing because they are my number 1 OTP right now. And then in the confessional she was talking about how she thought deep down inside she wanted this to happen, but I thought it was pretty obvious that she was just trying really hard to convince herself that, and that she really was just upset about Miles and Julie. So anyways, in my mind they spent the whole summer not contacting each other since they were hurt from their break up, but Miles did eventually get with Julie, because she was kind of like his second choice. And one more thing, this story will be mostly in Alya's POV, but a few chapters will be in Miles'. Okay, I'm done talking now. Let's get on with the story.

ALYA'S POV

I've never liked going back to school. I mean to be honest though, who does? But anyways, none of those first days never felt as bad as this. Ever.

Miles and I hadn't communicated all summer long. It was driving me crazy, but I couldn't do anything about it since I was the one that broke up with him, and I didn't want to be a horrible person by calling him all of sudden and saying, "Oh hey Miles. I just wanted to call you because I really regret breaking up with you, and I'm still absolutely in love with you. Please talk to me because you're all I can think about, and I don't know what to do with myself. Bye."

This whole situation was driving me crazy. How could I have been so stupid? I thought I was making the right choice by breaking up with him, but clearly not. Or maybe I was. I don't know.

It's just the whole thing with Julie that's really bugging me now. I can't believe they're together. I wonder if he's happier with her. He probably is. I mean he did try to kiss her when he was still dating me.

As I walked through the doors to Keaton, my thoughts were interrupted by seeing Miles and Julie walking together holding hands, and laughing.

I'm not going to cry. I'm not. I don't think I am. Maybe I am. I am.

I can't help it. I hate myself for being so sensitive about it, but it hurts so bad.

I run to the bathroom to get away from everyone, and just be alone for a little bit.

I haven't even been inside the school for a minute and I'm already crying by myself in the bathroom. What kind of freak am I?

After getting my act together, and giving myself a mediocre pep talk, I'm out the door.

Luckily Miles and Julia have passed by, but still.

I continue to walk to Mr.Park's room, which unfortunately has Miles in it.

Breathe, Alya. Breathe.

I take a step through the door and focus my attention on the chair that's sitting on the opposite side of the room of Miles. I don't look at anything else. Just the chair.

I can feel him staring at me, but I just ignore it. He doesn't like me. Who could like me?

Only a couple minutes of silence pass by before class starts. Bianca and Jax sit up front with Miles which I'm actually kind of thankful for. I really don't want to talk to anybody.

"Welcome back everybody. I hope you all had a wonderful summer break. Trust me, I know how hard it is to come back. That's why this year I've decided to start the year off with a fun project instead of those boring speeches all of your other teachers are going to give you today. For this project you will be in groups of two. Which I have chosen for you." Mr.Park says.

The whole class groans at the fact of his choosing for the partners.

"For this project, you two will have to come up with a song that you feel describes your relationship and feelings about one another. I know some of you aren't going to like this, but please don't make this a joke. Please make this serious. I want to see a different sentimental side to all of you. Partner listings are up on the board. Good luck you guys." Mr. Park finishes.

I nervously walk up the board along with the rest of the class.

Please don't let it be Miles. I can't do this.

Once most of the class moves away I can finally get a chance to look at the list and see who my partner is.

And guess who it is?

Miles Lennox.

A/N

Thank you so much for reading. It really means a lot to me. Please let me know how I did, and if you liked it. If you did like it please rate, and leave a comment because that would really motivate me to write the next chapter. Again, thank you so much, and I hope you have a wonderful day! :)