If It Ain't Love

Chapter 1: Jinx is the Name

Adrian is a new kid. He is currently hanging out with his new found friends, Aiden, Shawn and Derek. They were walking towards their class. They were attending University in London. Adrian pushed up his glasses as he heard the guys talk about a group of girls. Typical. He thought. As they entered the class. The guys took no hesitation to walk towards a group of girls. They are none other than Jinx. Adrian eyes grew wider and stared at a particular girl. He had met the girl. Sometime ago but when? That's the main question. The girls lifted their heads to greet them as the one Adrian saw scowled.

"Who are they?" Adrian asked. "They are Jinx," all three guys spoke. Sensing Adrian's confusion, Derek explained, "Jinx is a group of 4 most popular girls who are not stuck up b*tches who uses there initials to form their group." Aiden continued, "they are Jamilah, Shawn's Girlfriend, Iris, my Girlfriend, Naomi and Xerena, the girl Derek is trying to get together with." Each of them waved when their names were being said. Shawn then added on, "though, anyone who tries to get together with Naomi would get rejected of given the cold shoulder or Xerena who would just walk away. Except Derek."

Adrian stared at Naomi, he knew her, but he can't pinpoint where. "Have we met, Naomi?" Was all Adrian could utter. Naomi turned around, "maybe we did, maybe we didn't, you should know Adrian......just kidding, I'm not so cold. We have met. Though I wish we didn't," she muttered the last sentence in a Whisper. That earned Naomi a smack on the back. Her face showed no pain but instead gave Derek a pointed look. Adrian then recalled. Of course they have met, he used to have a crush on her before he started having an interest in another girl when they are 14.

"Mi?!?!?!" Naomi's Long hair slapped Adrian in the face. Naomi had not heard that name since high school years. Her hearts starts to ache. No she cannot be vulnerable. "My name is Naomi and not Mi, even if u were to call me in short form its Omi or Nomi," Naomi hissed through her teeth. She felt pins pricking on her skin. That's the past and she cannot be that girl who lets her guard down again for the second time.

Adrian was confused. Naomi had loved to be called 'Mi' in the past. She was also a lot more fun to be with. He looked around and saw everybody wearing solemn expressions. They know something, something he doesn't and he was not sure whether does he wasn't to find out or not. Suddenly, as though nothing happened, Naomi was back, "Lets put that aisde, if I hear another 'Mi' I would freak. You know us, we Should get to know you too." Adrian started introducing himself while staring into Naomi's hazel eyes, trying to figure her out. What is wrong with her?

Naomi, on the other hand, was the opposite of Adrian. She knew Adrian was trying to understand her but she could not let him get to her. Naomi had never thought she would meet anyone from high school again. Jinx knows her past that's why she allows herself to get attached to them because they did not leave her. Not the boys though. They only know bits and pieces of her life which she thought it was not serious enough to be kept a secret. At this point in time, even if she doesn't show it, she is scared, scared of the what ifs. What if that part of her was told out by Adrian? What if they left her when they knew? And a whole lot more 'what if' possibilities. She could only pray for the best.

Just then, the bell rang. They scrambled to their seats, leaving a dazed off Adrian. Naomi took her bag off the chair and hugged it while signaling Adrian to sit beside her. Adrian slipped into the seat, muttering a 'thankyou' in return. The teacher walked into class "Good Morning. I am Miss Eunice and I would be your new form teacher." The class greeted her before engaging in their own conversation and the topic is diverted at none other than Adrian.

From all corners of the room, it was all about the new boy sitting next to a member of Jinx. Naomi had always sat alone, mainly because nobody had succeeded in winning a debate on why they should sit. Adrian shifted uncomfortably in his seat while Naomi acted like nothing had happened and was in a world of her own, reading her own book. A tap came from behind and Adrian leaned backward, "bud, hang in there, you will get used to it." With that said, Derek sat back upright while Adrian let his chair fall forward. That moment, Adrian realized, this was what he was getting into, the centre of attraction.

It was lunch when the group regrouped from different subjects. The table they claimed was at the far end of the room. They were normal to Adrian, nothing in particular, just regular students with more attention. All except Naomi, he wanted to know more, where did the girl he used to like go. He may not like her anymore, but he still preferred the old her, all bubbly and all but this is her old self. He is confused. She was the same girl he used to know at the same time she wasn't.

Close to the end of the lunch, Jinx got up and walked to the small stage in the centre of the room. Naomi took the stool behind the microphone, Jamilah picked up the guitar and sat on the stool next to the keyboard that was being occupied by Iris and Xerena sat behind the drum set. Naomi gave them a cue and they started playing titled 'What Hurts The Most'

Naomi-

"I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm OK
But that's not what gets me"

Iris-
"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do"

Jamilah-
"It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken"

Xerena-
"What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say (much to say)
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do, oh."

All-
"What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say (to say)
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do"

Naomi closed her eyes at the last chorus. She could not take it, this was like showing a part of her life which nobody knew about.

Adrian stared at her, hidden emotions flooding his mind. He felt like there is a meaning to this song, a hidden message but he can't decipher it. That's the thing about Naomi, nobody understands her but Jinx and only Jinx. Adrian, however, want to know more, he is information hungry about Naomi. He wants to know her past, he wants to get to her but how is the question. He felt like he is missing a whole chunk of important information, the big clue to the answer. This was merely just 1 puzzle piece out of thousands to make the picture.

Adrian was determined to find out and he will. When he put his mind and soul into it, he can do almost everything but a heart plays a part here too. Will he be able to make use of his heart along with his mind and soul and figure Naomi out before it is too late. Until that time, he had all the time to manage by himself until then when things make a turn and there was a hole in the road. Would he fall or would he go around it? Would he find the answer or would answer find him?

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This chapter is about Adrian. Don't be confused, the rest of the chapter except few would all be Naomi point. I though I should elaborate a little about what Adrian thinks and what he is trying to do. SO here is chapter 1, do continue reading.

Luv'ya,
Devi~