Sober.

Twenty one.

I looked around as Zayn wheeled me past all the babies in the nicu, they were all so beautiful in there own way. But that's when I saw her, my heart speed up and tears started to form in my eyes, call it mothers intuition I knew who my baby was. I stood up slowly next to her crib and smiled she was perfect tiny but perfect. Her dark hair stuck out like a sore thumb while a lot of the other babies had lighter hair. I placed my hand in there and she placed hers in mine. It was the most amazing moment of my life to know me and Zayn created another life is crazy to me. "She's beautiful Zayn." I said as tears flooded my face, he wiped them away softly. "Just like you my love." I felt my face heat up as I placed it on his chest. "I can't believe we had a daughter." "Me either." He kissed my forehead softly as he just watched me bond with our daughter.

After hours of pumping milk and enjoying my beautiful daughter, I didn't get to hold her yet as she was so tiny but they said if she continued to do this great then very soon. But who knew how long very soon was in the nicu I had no idea how long she would be here but I was going to be here everyday with her during it. I knew this was goin to be stressful on our famous lives, I don't know how we would deal with the stress but I was hoping our little girl would get us through it all.

I laid in the hospital bed for the last night excited to be home tomorrow but then I would right back at the hospital it sucked it really did but she was so worth it. I cuddled in to Zayn as we watched some stupid movie but I was staring at him, taking in his every feature he was gorgeous, no wonder out daughter was already so beautiful she got it from her father. "What you looking at?" "You." I said before kissing his nose. He scrunched up his face and made this cute noise that made me giggle. "Zayn Malik i love you." "Selena Marie Gomez I love you too."