My mother warned me about the cigarettes that could cause cancer
But she never told me that self hatred can grow faster than any tumor ever could.
My father warned me that I should never stop thinking
But he never told me that overthinking would kill my happiness.
My sister warned me about other people who might make hurtful comments about me
But she never told me that instead of hearing someone else's voice, I'd hear my own.
My brother warned me about drugs in baggies sold in the street
But he never told me I would be the one selling them
My grandmother warned me about the devil with his tail and red horns
But she never never told me about his angelic smiles and dark, ocean blue eyes.
My grandfather warned be about booze that could kill
But he never told me that if you drink enough alcohol, it tastes like love.
My cousin warned me that I should lose my virginity to a guy i love
But she never told me that he should love me too
My aunt warned me that if I keep eating that much, I might vomit
But she never told me that even without eating anything, you can hang over the toilet and puke.
My baby sitter warned me that a boy could break my heart
But she never told me that if I made him mad, he's also break my arm and nose.
My teacher warned me about dangerous men with knives that could cut my throat
But she never told me that I didnt need these men to cut my skin.
They all warned me that i shouldn't do dangerous things that could kill me
But I never had the chance to ask them if slitting both my wrist vertically
And taking thirty-eight aspirins, was one of these dangerous things.
~~excerpt from a book I'll never write #7
