I can't remember how I was before I destroyed myself.
I can't remember how it felt to be happy on days on end
how it felt to not be drowned by anxiety and panic every day
how it felt to want to wake up and start the day
how it felt to hang out with friends without wondering if they really liked you
how it felt to talk to my family without being forced to
how it felt to love
I can't remember how it felt to want to live.
