Why Him?

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Y'all are fucking awesome, just letting you know that. 

UPDATE TIME

Sophomore year everyone, 3 years of writing this book. Holy Shit. I feel old. Anyways, so sophomore year, hoping grades will be better than last year (otherwise I'm dead). Uhm gonna focus on school and not drama. Gonna have fun this year, be more active.

I wanna start working out and loose weight. But I have to wait till my knee gets better. Right, haven't told you guys about my knee. Well towards the end of summer I sprained my knee, then being the  idiot I am, I go bowling on it. So then a week later my mom takes me into the doctor and he says "I'ma put you on pain and inflammatory meds, so in a week it will be better." A week passes and I'm like still not better, so my mom calls in and they say I can't go in till the following wednesday (two weeks past when I was supposed to be checked). And I'm like ight fam it's whateves. So then he examines me and says it was worse than the time I say you before. And so I'm like no shit sherlock, he sends me down to be x-rayed. Painful as shit. Like I don't really cry that much when I'm in pain, but I was full on bawling. So we get back to the room, he pulls up the x-ray, no chip in my knee so he's like "Idk what's wrong and why it's still so swollen." Then I found out that my gene pool sucks even more than ever, I have this disease called patella femoral syndrome. Idk what it does to my knee. And the doc also said, my immune system might be attacking my joints. Which is unusual at my age. Oh! And the cherry on top, I've stopped growing. 5'4" for the rest of my fucking life. My family is forever going to call me hobbit. 

2 weeks before my knee was hurt some serious shit went down. My grandma fell and broke her neck. However because she has a lot of rods and plates in her body she was saved. If she didn't have the rods in her body she'd be dead. But surgery went well, she went to rehab for a week and a half, she's now on the uphill of getting better and my family is so thankful. Also Gma moved in, not sure if I told y'all that, but she moved in during the end of the school year. That was fun <-------- Sarcasm. It was a very long, tiring process, that nobody enjoyed. My friends helped me of course (They were paid too, not into that illegal labor shit) 

So now I'm 4 days into school. My classes are History, English, Chemistry, and Basic Stage Tech. Then the next day its Geometry, French, Guitar, Beginning Drawing (That teacher really loves me, she wants me to join the VPA, but I'm good just not being in STEM or VPA). I like all of my classes. It's funny so last year my schedule went 'Math, then french' this year it's the same, and I have the same teachers too. (My math teacher doesn't really like me, I'm too loud and outgoing for him.) So I'm like okay who's fucking with my schedule? 

For the school musical we're doing Phantom Of The Opera..... I'm of course auditioning, which is tomorrow. I have to sing a 30 second part of a song, and do a one minute monologue. I'm still memorizing my monologue, but the song I'm singing is from Hamilton, so I already have it memorized. Which I should probably get back to memorizing my monologue.. Eh I'ma still write, I need a break.

Today is my Dad's birthday so we're going to Oscar Blue's. They have amazing root beer and hot sauce. Not together of course, that'd just be disgusting. He's turning 52.... I think. Idk XD then I think we're going to play some board games for like an hour, then I have to go back to memorizing my monologue. 

My depression is up and down for me at times. Like today I was happy one moment, then like a tidal wave of feeling nothing came over me. But I feel like I'm getting better. Like I know how to cope with it.

My two bestfriends broke up... But now they're acting weird and talking more. Like today I got to see Chels maybe two times before she was pulled away by Zach. And for some odd reason that like really irritated me. I guess it's just me being close to starting my period and the steroids. (Steroids for my knee, not to make me buff) 

Welp I should really get back to memorizing my shit. So peace out everyone! Lots of love

~Megan 

(PS. This chapter is 823 words.... That's a lot for me)