Why Him?

Weird Dream

So weird dreams, right... I'ma tell you my weird dream that hit me on an emotional level

Anyways I was watching football practice for a while until it was over. So I go and talk to the coach, and I was asking her hey how was Josh playing this year. 

She goes "Well why don't you ask him yourself?" And we're walking around the locker room.

I reply, "Something happened last year, and we haven't really been able to talk to each. And I just wanted to know how he's doing. Cause I still care about him."

Coach gives me a sympathetic look and pushes open a bathroom stall door to revel Josh standing there.

I gasp and start walking away, however there's two ways to get to the door, the long way (Which I took), or the short way (Which Josh took).

Right as I round this corner I see the door so I start rushing towards it, but Josh gets infront of it and closes it. 

"What?" I ask in a tired tone.

"Megan I'm so sorry." Josh says.

I laugh, "Yeah that would've been good to know maybe when you stopped texting me outta the blue."

He looks at me, "Megan I'm sorry I didn't know what to do. My mom was giving me crap for being friends with you, cause she said I lose my way to the top. And at the time I was really stupid and chose popularity over my feelings."

My eyes start sweating, "Josh.. I'm sorry too-" I get a text from this guy who I have a crush on: Megan let's go we don't want to be late for D&D. "I gotta go."

"Megan please.. I'm sorry... I'm so very sorry.. Please give me another chance." He pleads.

I look at him full on crying now, "You've had your chance since the 2nd grade Josh. We're high schoolers now. Going on to be sophomores."

"Megan ple-" He tries again.

"I'm sorry Josh. I have to go. Goddbye." I say turning around planning on going through the other exit.

"Don't say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away. And going away means forgetting. Don't forget me Megan.. Please. " He says using the quote from my favorite movie. He would know that because we talked about it all last summer.

I turn back to him and say, "Maybe it's best if we forget eachother."

And I walk away.

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This hurt. Like really hurt. I'm crying right now just recalling it. To me this is a form of a nightmare and it woke me up. For a while I thought this was true. But it's not.. And never will be because Josh will always belittle people.