Deep Down With Depression

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Morning:

My alarm were at 6.01am, and it woke me up good. Then I decided to leave laying on my bed like usualy, as I have 3 hours to school. Well, I fell asleep, but no problem, I woke up again at 7.06am that was good. But I can't get up.

Now it is 7.40am and I'm still laying here. Can't get up. I'm almost all awake, but can't get up. I should be ready at 8.25am and then start walking to school at least at 8.30am.

I need to eat, dressup, clean my face, take meds, put on bit of powder and eyeliner... but I can't get up

Uggghhhhhhh..... I'm gonna do die............

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Okay... Now 9.56am. I've get myself up and to livingroom where I fellasleep on sofa. Mom is pissed off, cos I just lay 'under her eyes' while I should be at school. Well done me, well done.

I got myself to eat banana, it was good, I were vit hungry.. But now I'm in my bed, strengthless again...

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16.19pm

Well well.. I've got better... I've eated, played Sims 4 (XD) but yeah.. STILL TIRED!

Well, anyway.. Mom is not so angry anymore, but I can tell she is still pissed off. I hope that teachers doesn't kill me.... :/

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22.10pm

Fuck.... Fuck.. Tired.. Fuck....

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22.48pm

Sooo.. I'm gonna play Sims 4 for a some time now, the go sleep.

I also have very very strange feeling. Kind of angry, mostly sad.... Painful...