Torn up || the Outsiders fanfiction

Older but cuter

That night you just went home. You couldn't stay with Cherry cuz she's a no good lyin' snake, and you couldn't stay at Ponyboy's house because it's kinda awkward after what happened.
Sodas pov:
(Y/n) left and I was upset a little, I wanted her to stay the night. But I guess it would be horrible of me to make her stay over after what already happened tonight, it was too much for Pony to handle. He's lays in bed and faces the other direction. I'm facing his back "Ponyboy can we talk?" I ask.

"There's nothin' to talk about.. You stole my girlfriend." He says still facing away. "Pony it's not like that there's some things you don't know." I say I need to not get angry. He turns to face me angrily, "Then what is it like, Sodapop?" I look down feeling not great for what I've done but he also dated her when I loved her. "You know I wouldn't do that to her. You knew I wouldn't kiss Cherry." He says frantically waiting for my response. "Yes Pony, I know that. I didn't kiss her back because I was on her side. She didn't even think you kissed Cherry to start off but Cherry made her mad by sittin' with you on purpose and when she thought she was gettin' revenge it was actually on you but then you were kissin' Cherry on the cheek." I say. I pause. "Is that the whole story? Because it's not very convincing of why I shouldn't be mad, Soda." He says impatiently. "No, let me finish." I continue. "She's a year older than you and a year younger than me. I've seen her around school forever before I dropped out and I was so in love with her. But then I dropped out. I wasn't smart enough for school. So I've just been thinkin' bout' her and how I'd barely get to see her again... Til' one day you brought her home..." I get quiet and disappointed, "as yer girlfriend." I look away from Pony's eyes. I roll onto my back. "Ya know Pony I thought she'd be the one for me, til' you took her home as your girlfriend that day and it broke my heart Pony. And the reason why I kissed her back is because I loved her and I always will love her." I turn my head to look and him again. He turns onto his back too, "I'm so sorry Soda I didn't know-" "it's fine." I cut him off. "But I love her and if she does love me... I can't help it." I say to him. "I understand." He says and a tear rolls down his cheek. I turn my body to him and wipe the tear away. "You'll find a new girl, Ponyboy. I promise." I say with hope. I look at him and he's asleep. I turn to my other side and close my eyes. I hope I can hang out with (y/n) tomorrow but I know she stills likes Ponyboy more. I don't know what it is but they'll make up and yeah, it'll break my heart again but I have her for now. And like that I drift off to sleep.

You wake up and your first thought is Ponyboy! And then it hits you. You aren't datin' no more. You're still concerned about him and somewhere deep down you still love Pony with all your heart. You realize you have Sodapop. He's older but he's cuter. At least you have a guy! You couldn't get one until now and now you're gettin' 'em all.
You fix up your hair and head on downstairs. You see your parents in the kitchen. You try to sneak past them but your old man saw ya. "Where do ya think yer goin' young lady." He says crossing his arms. "With my friends, can I leave now?" You don't like your folks too much, they ain't kind and they're overprotective. He sighs and says "fine." And you practically run out the door. You head to Ponys house.

You get to their house and walk in. You look around no ones home? You head towards Pony and Sodas room. The door was closed but you heard no noise. You knock, nothing. So you open the door. You see Ponyboy naked picking out some clothes while wearing headphones. You scream so loud and turn around. Pony heard you and takes his headphones off. He looks over and sees you. "Ahh!" He screams, grabbing his towel from off the bed and wrapping it around his waist. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." You say quickly. "I thought no one was home and I knocked on the door first but there was no answer and um." You were a little surprised to see Ponyboy, especially naked. "It's fine. You can turn around." He says. You turn around and see the towel around his waist and his abs were showing. As you were staring at Pony you realize you miss him already. He quickly threw on some boxers and jeans without taking the towel off. You're still staring. "Can we, uh, talk?" You ask hesitantly. "Listen (y/n), I'm not really in the mood for talking to ya right now." He replies. "Please, it's important." You say. He sighs, sits on the bed, and motions for you to sit beside him. "Make it quick." He says a little irritated. "Okay Ponyboy, I know we went through somethin' pretty rough the other day and I'm sorry I couldn't trust you. I also couldn't trust Cherry either. If you were put in that situation what would you do? Anyways Pony I wanted to say, I know it wasn't you who kissed Cherry and I knew you'd never do that to me." You explain. "How do you know?" He questions. "Well after the whole Soda scenario I went to the bathroom and I heard them talkin' and the way she was talkin' I knew it was her." "I told you she was a no good lyin' rat." He says lookin' into your eyes. "And there's somethin' else.." You look down. "I thought I liked Soda and I know he likes me and I know you still love me. An' there's this thing inside of me that always wants to come back to you." You look into his eyes. "When I'm with Soda I feel great. He's cute, older, and has a lot more great qualities, but when I'm with you... It's like I'm in another world and it's the best feeling in the entire world and I want to feel that again. A simple glance from you makes me weak at the knees Ponyboy. I don't know how you feel but I'm tellin' the truth." You were scared for what Pony was gonna say. He looks away and takes a few minutes to think. "It's true. I do still love you, (y/n). An' I always will. But I can't just pickup where we left off this second. Maybe give me a few days to talk the Sodapop and think about it okay?" He says. "Okay." You say fighting back tears of joy and a little bit of sadness. He gives a little smile and you smile back. You get up to leave, "hey wait." Pony says. "On one condition." You turn to look at him and nod. "No more drama. You can trust me and I can trust you, always." "Of course Ponyboy." You agree. "Ok I'll see you in a few days." You smile and walk out the door. You start to leave the house but Soda walks in, "hey baby," he smiles and pulls you in to kiss. You kiss him back but uncomfortably. He looks down at you with a little frown, "what's wrong?" "Oh nothin' I was was just head in' home." You smile. He smiles back and let's you go. As soon as he couldn't see your face that smile was gone. And you headed home, you had a lot of thinkin' to do tonight.