|Efflorescence Z.M.|

And she don't want to go outside tonight

"This is my house,Angela. Open the door." He says gently,his hear pressed against the locked door. He makes a mental note to take off the locks in her room.

"Angela open the damn door or-" he stops his own words before he says something he'd regret. Zayn sits down against the door,his back against it. Angela had been doing the same thing. Gentle sobs left her red lips as she embraced herself,her knees hugged to her chest. Zayn was chewing on his bottom,feeling more terrible than usual.

His manager had just texted him-they have an interview on Ellen tomorrow. How the hell am I going to fix this?

"Angela please just..talk to me. Make me understand because I clearly don't. Why do you do this to yourself?"

"Angela..." He whispers,the lovely name sounding beautiful in his raspy voice.

"I love you,Angie. Just...let me love you."

"Angela! Angela open the door!" Spencer yells,banging on the door of her green house. She was inside,hiding behind the plants-black stains running down her cheeks. She stands up once she hears lightning-scared as hell that something would happen to Spencer.

"Why didn't you tell me? Why did you do this to me,Spence..why would yo-" she rants,not being able to understand why and how he had kept the secret. Spencer had leukemia-for three months-and hadn't told her. She found out once she went to one of his physical therapy meetings-out raged.

She stormed into the room and started yelling at his female therapist. She thought he was cheating for the therapist was touching him and Angela had a wild imagination.

"Because I'm selfish and people do selfish things when they are in love..I'm sorry you had to find out this way but..I love you so much-"

"No! Don't say that! Don't! You don't mean it,no one ever does!" She yells,covering her ears with her hands. Spencer removes the small hands from her ears,pressing his lips to hers. "I love you Angie..just let me love you." He whispers,cupping her face gently.

Brown meets blue and everything seemed..lovely. "I love you too. Please don't leave me."

"I won't. I'll love you until the day I die."

And he did. Another tear rolls down her cheek,the pain in her heart too hard to over come. The weed-the ecstasy brought by it-wasn't enough to take her mind off of it. It never was. In some twisted way,this was her form of recompensing Spencer's death. She left him when he needed her. She made herself miserably for she "didn't deserve happiness",as Spencer's mom told her. The saddest part is,she actually believed it.

Her sobs become louder,face buried in her hands. She stands up,opening the door and falling into Zayn's arms. He holds onto her tightly,hoping to fix all her pieces but there were just too many.

"I love you," he repeats over and over again;truth behind his words.