Things Only Musician Understand

Part 3: Eliza

(flashback)

We stood there

with our backs to the world

holding the little bundle

that was the last thing

my friend ever saw,

or did.

he was beautiful

in every way,

with bright blue eyes

And soft features.

JJ held us there

and said

that I was his mother

and that he was his father.

later on

in the car that night,

he stopped the car

and looked at me

"I know

that this baby isn't my problem

and that its yours in a way,

but

I will be here for you,

in anyway that you need.

I will take care of this baby,

like I would with my own,

because in some ways,

I already think that he is.

I was thinking,

when I held Raylin

in my arms

crying

that night,

about what it would be like

being a father and all,

and I went to bed that night

thinking

of everything

I could do

and what I would have to do

if that were ever to happen.

And now that it has happened,

I know that

I need to:

Love him

hold him

tell him I'm proud

Teach him new things

Listen to what he says

teach him how to paint

and teach him to draw

and tell him how important music is

and teach him respect

and discipline

and whats right

and whats wrong.

I have to do

what my father never did for me

and what a child deserves in life.

this is my chance Eliza,

to do what my father never did

and what Raylin's mom

and father

never did,

this is my chance

to make things right,

and how they really should be.

I don't care,

if you don't want that,

because I do,

and I'm not letting you do this alone,

I'm promising

to always be there

for you

and for Justin

and for any other child

that just so happens to come into our family

I will do this

because its right,

and you have to trust me to.

Do you trust me?"

I nodded my head yes

making the tears on my cheeks

fall faster

into my lap.

He took either hand

and put them on the sides of my face,

"I promise,

and if I make It out of this alive,

I will marry you

and I will make you mine.

Don't forget that

ever,

Because even in the next life

I will marry you

and I will love you with everything

that I posses."

And I remember it,

how could I not,

I dream about it

in the place of nightmares