What will I do without u

I can't take it anymore

Jacks POV 

                I woke up and realized it was still night. I checked my phone and saw it was 3am. "Markimoo?" Mark shot up. "Yeah?" "Can you help me get upstairs I'm tired. "Yeah of course." Mark helped me stand up being sure not to do anything to make me loose it. I felt shaky as Mark touched me. My heartbeat sped up and I could feel my heart pumping up against my ribcage. I was to tired to crawl up the stairs so I jumped on Marks back and he carried me up. Mark could feel me shaking. "Jack you okay?" "Yeah please just hurry up and set me down." "Okay.." Mark set me down on the bed and I pulled the blankets up to my chest and drifted off back into sleep.

              I shot awake. I was covered in sweat and saw Mark sitting next to me. "Hey you okay?" I breathed heavily and finally brought up the courage to answer. "No I'm not." I pulled my knees into my chest ignoring the pain in my leg. I began to cry. "What's wrong love?" I sobbed and told Mark. "I miss being able to touch you without my body freaking out on me! I miss you holding me all the time! I miss holding your hand and kissing you! I miss you sleeping next to me! And most of all I miss you!" I continued to cry. "Mark I can't take it anymore!" "We're gonna have to make it work." "What?" I was confused what did he mean? Mark touched my arm and laid me back down on the bed. My heartbeat sped back up again. "M..Mark?" Mark laid down next to me and wrapped his arms around me. I began to shake uncontrollably. "Mark?" "It's okay." I held onto Marks hand and tried to controll myself. After a while the tension in my muscles went away and I was able to relax. I refused to move cause I knew if I did I'd tense up again. "Jack.." "Please don't say anything I don't want to freak out again.." "I love you..." I smiled slightly. "I love you too." Mark kissed my cheek and my heart sped up again. Shit! I breathed calmly hoping not to yell at him to get off. I squeezed Marks hand tighter pulling his hand up to my chest. "Jack you okay?" "Please don't say anything." I scooted closer to Mark my heart going even faster. It became hard to breathe. "Jack?" I pushed Mark away and tried to calm myself down. I looked at Mark with hurt eyes. Mark knew he couldn't do anything to help so he sat next to me and talked me through it. After a while I was back to normal. "Mark I'm so sorry." "It's okay we gotta take things slow." "But I don't want to." "I know love." I sighed and laid back down. "Hey." Mark made me look his way. "I love you." "I love you too." I smiled at Mark as best as I could for not being able to touch him. Mark rubbed his hand alone my back. "We'll be okay." I was calmer then I expected. 

Marks POV 

                Jack fell back asleep even though it was noon. I went downstairs to watch tv to see my mom. "Hi mom." "Hi sweety. Jack up?" "He fell back asleep." "How's he doing?" " I don't know." I sighed and plopped down on the couch. "Mark we need to talk about Jack." "Okay..." "I don't think Jack can live with us anymore we are tight on money and can't afford it." "What!?! Mom you can't do that! I'll get a job or something! Mom please don't." Tears began to form in my eyes. "I'll talk to your dad." My mom stood up and went to her room to talk to my dad. What would I do without Jack. I ran upstairs to my room to be with Jack. "Jack? Love wake up." I shook him carefully being sure not to startle or hurt him. Jack turned around slowly groaning. "What time is it?" "1pm." I laughed and Jack looked at me surprised. "Wanna play call of duty or something?" "Definitely." I set up the gaming system and got comfortable. Jack sat in between my legs and snuggled into my chest. "I'm gonna kick your ass." Jack muttered at me. "You wish." Jack laughed and so did I. I played with his hair and started the match. "Asshole I shot you!" Jack was very competive at video games. We kept playing and I could see my mom in the door way watching us. I pretended not to notice her and Jack definitely didn't notice so she continued to watch. I ended up winning the match. Jack looked up at me smiling. "Shithead." I laughed at the statement and kissed the top of Jacks head. "Can we play again?" "Of course." I continued to win and Jack continued to playfully get mad at me. "I'm not stopping till I win!" "You sure bout that?" "No I'm kinda hungry." "Yeah me too." Jack laughed. "I'll go see if we can get takeout." "Okay." I stood up and went downstairs. "Hey mom can we order food me and Jack are hungry." "Sure sweety." I got the phone and ordered Pizza Hut. When I went upstairs Jack was sitting there waiting. "Took ya long enough." "I know sorry love." I sat down and Jack got back into the same position he was in before. We played another round and then the pizza showed up. "Be right back." I rushed downstairs and got the food and paid. I brought food up to Jack alone with a soda. Of course I did the same for myself. We ate pizza and talked for hours. 

             It was really late when I realized what time it was. "Holy shit it's 3am!" "Oh my god!" Me and Jack laughed. "I'm gonna go shower I smell." "Need any help?" "No I'm fine." "Okay well save water I gotta shower to." "Okay." Jack showered as quickly as he could for being so hurt. I went next. After I was done I walked into my room to see Jack asleep on the bed. "You goof." I slept next to him making sure not to get to close this time.