What will I do without u

I can't do it again

Marks POV 

                  I woke up to Jacks alarm. I sat up and saw him continuing to sleep. "Baby wake up." I lightly shook him and he got up. He slapped the snooze button and got up. I turned it off and went back to sleep. I slept for a while then Jack woke me up. "Mark I'm leaving see you later." Jack kissed me and left. I tried to sleep for a while longer but I'd been sleeping with Jack this past week so it was hard to sleep without him. I decided I'd get up and go see him at school later. 

Jacks POV

                 I sat in the car for a while. How the hell could I go into school after what Felix did! I breathed carefully and got out of the car running into Phil. "Aw shit sorry man!" "It's okay. How ya doing?" "I'm...uh..fine." "Dan offered to be your body guard for the day or week till these picture things die down." "It's fine I'll be fine." I walked into the school with Phil by my side. People eyed me like crazy. Some pointed and laughed but I ignored. This had happened before at my school in Ireland when I was bullied. All I had to do was wait for that to come. I don't wanna go back to where I was a few months ago. All you have to do is give me abusive parents again and take away Mark and I'll be the same. Phil walked away to Dan and I kept my head down low avoiding people.

               The day went by slowly as people and teachers eyed me. When lunch came I sat by myself like I used to and waited for it to be over. I refused to eat anything and sat there thinking. I buried my face in my arms and tried to relax. I felt a hand tap me and I looked up. It was Mark. He sat down right next to me. My mouth stayed open and I stared at him. "What the hell are you doing here?" "I was bored and I missed you." "I've had enough shit today you can't be here!" "It'll be fine." "Oh my god." I couldn't help but smile. I wanted to see Mark. I missed him. 

Marks POV

                Jack and I talked for a while. People gave us some looks but it didn't matter to me I didn't go to school here. After a while a group of guys came over to us. "Hey faggot!" They eyed Jack. I looked over at him. His head was down and he fiddled with his fingers. Then they noticed I was here. "I see you brought your little boy toy." "Just leave him alone." Jack looked up at the guy telling him to back off me. I was supposed to protect Jack he wasn't supposed to protect me. I looked at him and whispered, "Jack don't..." he looked at me then back at the group of guys. "I do what I want and you can't stop me!" "I could if I wanted to." "But you can't!" "Your right I can't." The guy fell silent. "Exactly I'm always right!" He spit at Jack and walked away. People stared and whispered. Jack didn't move. "Jack...." Jack wiped the spit off his face and put his hands in his green hair looking down at the table. I touched his back hoping he'd talk to me. "Jack are you-" "Please stop Mark." He looked at me with glossy eyes. Some people looked at us with sympathy like they felt bad. He grabbed my hand and got up and dragged me to the bathroom. He held my other held and looked at me. "Mark I...I can't go through this again..I just can't." I stroked his cheek. "I'm not gonna let them hurt you." I pulled him into a hug. I rested my chin on the top of his head holding him tight. "Mark you can't stay forever...you know that right?" I could hear him get choked up. My eyes got teary and I swallowed hard. "I know..." I could feel Jacks breathing change when the tears came. I can't let this happen to him again. He was so hurt last time. I don't know what I would do if something happened to him. So much has happened this past year and everytime Jack seems to get hurt in the process. I just want him to be happy like he was a few days ago when I stayed. A tear escaped my eyes and I pulled away looking into his blue eyes that were full of falling tears. "I love you okay. Don't ever feel like I'm not here for you because I always will be." "I love you too." Jack weakly smiled. He kissed my cheek then wiped away his tears leaving the bathroom. I knew he was strong he could take this but not all at once. The pictures were one thing but the bullying is gonna tear him apart, mostly if they get physical with him. Jack went to his locker and I followed. "I'm gonna head to my next class okay." "Okay I'll see you later." "Okay." Jack smiled, grabbed my hand and then walked away. I watched him leave. I sighed and went to the cafeteria and looked for the kid who messed with Jack. I saw him and walked over to him. I could feel the anger rise out of my body. I pinned him into the wall his friends watching not doing anything. He looked me dead in the eye. "Get the hell off me!" "Shut the hell up!" He fell silent. "Leave Jack the fuck alone! I will not let him get hurt again by a sorry ass bitch like you! If I hear you hurt him you've got another thing coming..." Nobody moved. I flipped him off walking away in the process. 

             It was bout 2:45pm and I heard the front door open. I jumped off the couch over to Jack. "Hey baby how ya doing?" "Fine." Jack was acting kinda funny but I let it slide cause he'd get defensive if I asked. Jack and I cuddled and watched TV for a few hours then ordered pizza and watched more TV. Today was kinda our lazy day I guess. It got late and my eyes got heavy. I had been stroking Jacks hair feeling his chest rise and fall. I looked down at my chest and saw Jack asleep. I smiled and closed my eyes feeling the relief of sleep poor over me. 

              I woke up late in the night and felt Jacks breathing become harder. I rubbed his back. "Jack love, you okay?" "No." Jack buried his head in my chest and full out cried. I sat up holding him. I kissed the top of his head hoping he'd calm down. I hated it when he cried it always made me feel guilty cause I let him down. "Your okay." Jack ignored me and cried harder. Did anything happen after I left? What the heck was running through his mind? I had so many questions that couldn't be answered. I picked him up and carried him to his room. I laid him down and I laid next to him. We stared out the window looking at the moon shine off the water and the stars in the sky. Jack had calmed down but still let out a few tears every now and then. I wrapped my arms around him hoping he felt safe. "I hate that god damn window." Jacks voice sounded broken from the crying. "Why?" He swallowed. "I used to stare out that window thinking of you and when I could see you again. I used to think of the past and how when I hurt myself it would be just like it used to and I'd be fine...." I looked down at his arms seeing the old scars on his pale arms. My throat stung trying to hold the tears back. I forgot how much self harm broke Jack a few weeks ago. He's gonna break if piles up and he'll snap and I'll loose him forever. I just had to take the pain away. "I'm gonna make it all better Jack...no one will hurt you. I promise."