Unthinkable

Chapter 4 - Depression

(A/N :WARNING: Mentions depression and might be triggering. I love you guys and Stay Strong and Groovy (: )

*Melodies P.O.V*

I woke up to see Gregory hanging from my ceiling fast asleep. I smile and reach up, I poke his nose and I see a smile spread across his face, his eyes slowly open. "Good morning my love." he said. I gave a small giggle and said "Good morning my dear Dracula." putting a weird accent and emphasize on 'Dracula', he flips down off the ceiling. "Ha Ha, you're so funny my dear." I started to laugh. I felt his hand brush my hair behind my ear "How did I get so lucky to have you?" he asked looking at me longingly and lovingly. I looked at him with a small smile, he started back, I looked away for a second and glanced back, he was still looking at me "Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked with a slight grin. "Because you're beautiful." he said brushing my hair once more and then dropping his hand to hold mine. I get up and walk over to my shelf full of movies "Babe, come pick a movie with me?" I say turning around to see him standing up and walking towards me "My love, I've been alive for over 300 years but I am not familiar with any of these movies." he said with a laugh picking up one of the movie cases and looking at it. "Then pick some that look interesting and we can cuddle while watching it." I say walking over to my TV getting ready to set it up. "How many should I pick?" he asked looking clueless. "I don't know just pick some babe." I say turning on the DVD player and the TV, "Are these ones any good?" he asks passing the small stack of movies to me, Beetlejuice, Nightmare Before Christmas, Halloween Town 1 & 2, and Coraline. "These are all great movies babe, come on." I say popping one in and flopping onto the bed beckoning for him to join me.

*Slight Time Skip*

*Gregory's P.O.V*

We were watching the movies when I glanced over at Melodie, it was unbelievable how I feel for her, she is my everything and I hope that after all this vampire and amulet shit is over she can still be mine. She looked up at me and smiled then turned her attention back to Coraline. She is amazing, she deserves the world and a better life then the messed up vampire problems that I've been dragging her into, she is the most beautiful girl I've ever met and I don't deserve her. I frowned and said under my breath "I suck." she looked over at me "Everyone I've ever know has sucked, except you. You're too good for me." my eyes started to fill up with blood tears "You deserve so much better, and all I've ever wanted was for life to be beautiful for you and look at it." she reached for my hand and stroked the back of it with her thumb. "What good am I doing you?" I asked looking down into my lap, it was silent with only the movie playing in the background when she said "You're everything". I looked up at her, "You're everything to me. I don't ever want to live in a world without you. You're my family, my whole family." she said smiling. "You know, I used to have depression." she said looking down "I used to think about myself the way you are thinking of yourself right now." she got up from the bed and walked over to a shelf and picked up an empty bottle. "See, anti-depressants" she said sitting back down and showing me the bottle. "What does it feel like, having depression?" I asked examining the bottle "Its like screaming, but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed, you feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. The world is a filthy place, it's a filthy god damn horror show, there's so much pain. There's so much that we feel its the only way." she rolled up her sleeves to revel scars littering her arms. I grabbed her arm and asked her how and why, "I told you, there's so much pain that self mutilation seems logical." her voice cracked and her eyes filled with tears. I look up at her "Promise me, never again, even if after this vampire shit is over, if I'm not here you won't do anything like this." she smiled "It's been 6 months, and I never want to go back." I smiled and kissed her forehead, I wiped the remaining tears off her cheeks and pecked her nose. We layed back down and cuddled while talking about different things and good times to lighten the dark mood that was set in with all the talk of depression.

*Melodie's P.O.V*

We were laying there in silence when he turned to look at me "What?" I asked rubbing my face subconsciously "Earlier you said that I was your family, your whole family, so where is your mother and father?" he questions. "Well my mother and I lost contact a long time ago, her and my father fell out of love. My father just doesn't understand my thinking and he is very, particular." I said as he stood up and started to look at the different photos I had around my room, "I like this picture here." he said pointing to a picture of Becca and I hanging out at the beach. "Yeah, that one is definitely one of my favorites." I replied with a small laugh. He walked over to a shelf with a photo turned face down, he reached for it "No, don't look at that one." I jumped off my bed, but it was too late he saw the old picture of my father and I. "You work for Rookery, he's your father." he said his voice raising slowly. "I don't work for him and he is my-" he cut me off "You played me as a joke, to get closer to me and my family. How could you?" he looked at me with disbelief. "This wasn't a joke I swe-" he cut me off once more "Save it, I don't care anymore. You mean nothing too me." he said as he made his way to my window "Wait!" I screamed but he was already gone, I sat on the ground and ran my fingers through my hair "What have I done?"