Never say Goodbye [#wattys2016]

Chapter 37

A/N: NOT EDITED

Here is the longest chapter of the story. The previous "Chapter 37" has been unpublished and it has come up with some more beautiful moments you might hold on to.

Play the song in the media where mentioned :)

VERONICA'S POV

Goodbyes are difficult, They put an end to every story.

I have to bid goodbye to Ryan for his own good. He would be happy with her and regain everything he lost.

I am a walking tragic story with a lot of mess and drama in my life. He deserves to live a happy life. It doesn't bother me anymore that he left me behind, His happiness is my priority.

I can't reveal every single situation of my life to him. Because, I have buried it deep down in my heart. No matter what the reason is, I don't want to dig it out.

My mistakes have always been repetitive. I blindly trusted Adrian, too obsessed of the wish to be loved. I turned into a minx and broke the deal with Henry to date him for an year. Later, I took Ryan as a challenge and hid my past. In the end, I fell in love with him.

There are so many questions around me, I have always searched for answers. But, I no longer care now.

When a person loses the most precious thing in his life, He will be free from the fear of losing something else. Because, It won't make any difference.

Losing Ryan was like losing a part of me. I feel incomplete and empty. But, I am happy for him.

I hope he understood my past through the letter, Facing him after all the chaos would be awkward.

My bags were all packed to move out of the city. Good thing is, I am done with my final exams and I can use an excuse of job hunt.

One last time, I took a glance at my balcony which held some beautiful and awkward moments. I smiled at myself, Before I closed the curtain, I saw Ryan standing there. His face wasn't as attractive as before and his eye looked tired.

I couldn't stop myself from smiling when I saw him. He smiled back at me. It seemed like we both craved for each other's presence and for an instant, we forgot all the mess that has happened.

"Do you think one small poem of goodbye will let you go?" He asked, trying to be full of energy.

"Ryan-how come you are here?"

"Where else would I be? I belong to you-don't I?" He might be saying these words out of sympathy.

"Uh- I don't want to drag you into my chaos filled life." I replied holding back the emotions that were screaming inside me to hug him.

"I am an adventurous person, and chaos is what I look for."

"What if you lose yourself in those chaos?"

"It is when we lose ourselves completely, we discover ourselves." He smiled, gazing into my eyes.

"You will be tired of me" I said holding back the tears.

"You can tire me but I can never get tired of you" He winked.

"You are such a crazy pervert!" I hit his shoulder playfully, half smiling.

"And you are such a monkey!" He teased.

"Ryan! Stop calling me that!"

"Come here my queen" He pulled me into the hug and I buried my face into his neck.