One Direction Imagines/Preferences

Diana: Louis

Louis: 

I wanna reach out for you 

I wanna break these walls 

*Louis’ POV* 

“So you wanna go to the movies?” I asked her. 

“No I’m good,” she uttered, staring aimlessly at the wall. 

“Ok then. We can stay here and watch a movie. What do you wanna watch?” I asked getting up from the couch. I bent down in front of the DVD shelf waiting for her answer but when it never came, I turned around to find her gone. “Y/N?” I called out. 

I went upstairs and found her curled up under her blankets in bed. 

“Love you have to do something. You can’t just stay home and do nothing,” I told her. She didn’t answer me. “Don’t ignore me please.” 

“Louis just leave me alone,” she bitterly spoke. 

“Love what’s wrong? Why have you been like this lately? This isn’t you! Where’s the girl who goes out every night and has fun all the time?” 

“Louis just... don’t talk about it ok? Just drop it,” she demanded. 

“Y/N I care about you, what’s wrong? Tell me!” I shouted, probably too loudly. She gasped and flinched at my loud voice. I saw her start to tear up. 

“It’s nothing...” she uttered, grabbing her phone from the night stand and then running out of the room, leaving me standing there, annoyed with myself. Then I heard something I didn’t want to here. 

The front door slam shut. 

I bolted down the stairs and found she had left. She was gone. 

*** 

I spent the rest of the night searching for her through the streets, giving up after three hours of no luck. I went back to her house to grab my stuff and just as I was about to leave I heard noises upstairs. 

I crept upstairs and saw Y/N putting her coat away in her wardrobe. 

“What are you doing here?!” I shouted, startling her. She turned around and faced me, her face showing no emotion. “Well?!” 

“I came home,” she stated. 

“That much I realise Y/N. I spent three hours just now looking for you!! I thought you were dead or something!!” I yelled. She took a step back in fear. 

“Louis don’t... please don’t shout at me...” she quietly begged me. 

“Oh shut up Y/N! I’ve had enough of this! I’m trying to help you! Break down these walls you’ve built up for some reason but you won’t let me!” I hollered angrily. She fell to the floor and brought her knees to her chest. “I’m trying to reach out for you so stop pushing me away bitch!!” I was too fired up. She buried her head against her knees and I started to hear her softly cry. 

“Oh no...” I whispered to myself, knowing I’d hurt her and gone too far. 

“I-I’m sorry...” she uttered through tears. 

“Just tell me what’s wrong love,” I pleaded with her. 

She looked up at me through tear filled eyes and my heart broke, knowing I’d scared her. 

“I... I’m in love with you Louis.” 

I stepped back in shock, my eyes widened and jaw dropped. She looked upset at my reaction. 

“And I don’t know what to do about it. I keep trying to push you out of my head but it never works, no matter how many guys I go through. And my problem is you don’t feel the same way! You’ve got Eleanor!” she started to get more strength back. As she said all this I started to tear up. She stood back up on her feet and kept going. “It hurts because I’m so in love with you and there’s nothing I can do to stop these feelings. Every guy that’s hurt me only cuts the scars in my heart deeper. Every guy who hurts me, every time I see you with Eleanor... it tears me apart Louis... I’m sorry if I’ve seemed a little more closed off with you but it’s because of that ok? It’s because spending time with you kills me because I can’t stay in your arms for longer than the length of a movie because you go home to Eleanor, I can’t stay holding you forever when you hug me goodbye, I can’t turn a kiss on the cheek into a kiss on my lips. And it’s breaking me Louis. So much. Every night I sleep wishing you were filling the other half of the bed or that you’d finally realise how I feel and... and maybe you’d feel the same way,” she wiped away more tears. “So now you know. I hope you’re happy.” 

“Y/N I... I don’t know what to say...” 

“Nothing. Don’t say anything. Look can you just leave please?” 

“O-Ok...” I said with a nod, my eyes watering. I got into my car and just sat there for a minute. 

She loves me? 

I wouldn’t mind as much if... if I didn’t love her as well. 

I know I have Eleanor but... I’ve been in love with Y/N since before then. But Eleanor’s the love of my life. But the problem is my feelings for Y/N never died. 

Just once I need to kiss her... 

Without thinking, I jumped out of my car and stormed back into her house. I sprinted up to her room where she was still standing, now in tears. 

“Louis? What are you doing back here?” she asked me. I didn’t reply, I just walked up to her put my arms around her waist and crashed my lips onto hers. She was taken aback but thankfully kissed me back. She slipped her arms around my neck and I soaked in the feeling. It ended naturally after a minute and I just held her in my arms. 

“Why Louis?” she questioned. 

“I love you too... I always have but I can’t because...” 

“Eleanor,” she finished for me. 

“Yeah... I’m sorry.” 

“You shouldn’t have come up,” she said pushing me away. 

“What?” I breathed out. 

“You stand there and listen to me pour my heart out to me, tell me you don’t know what to say, leave, come back and kiss me, tell me you love me and then say you can’t love me. My head’s already messed up because of you, you’re making it worse Louis... just go.” 

“Y/N... I do love you. I want to help you. I’m reaching out to you and telling you I’m here to help break down these walls you’ve built up to protect yourself.” 

“All you’ve done is made the walls higher,” she told me, breaking my heart. “Please just go.” 

She pushed past me and went to the bathroom and closed the door. Then I left... I’m not done with trying to help her though. And I never will be.