Blurbs // 5sos ◊✎

panic attack/first - LRH

Okay but get this okay so you're in the crowd at one of their shows because they're playing a home show back in Aussie for the weekend and al that jazz okay so you're in the Pitt and you're like second or third row from the barricades right I front of Michael and the whole shows he's laughing with you and making faces to make you just forget about it all and enjoy the show because truly you don't do good with crowds but you wanted to be here for Luke and the rest of the boys okay so during disconnected Calum makes his way over to Michaels side and they're laughing with you from the stage and you're having a good time and then people start freaking out because they realize who the boys keep looking at and suddenly everything is closing in on you and your breathing starts to get faster and you don't want to be rude so you talk to a few of the people surrounding you because hello like you're Luke Hemmings' girlfriend Ofc people know who you are and then your breaths are getting shallower and you pry your way to the barricades apologizing to the people trying to talk to you. So You get to the front and Michael and Calum both immediately notice you and Michael whispers something in calums ear before Calum makes his way to the other side of the stage and Michael gets close to the end of the stage and crouches down to get as close to you as possible and it's not helping that everyone around you is now freaking out because like fùck that's Michael Clifford he's so close and he's telling you to breath and that its gonna be okay and you can see Calum out of the corner of your eye talking to Luke as he sings and you notice his eyes fill with panic as his words slow to a stop and he frantically looks over at you and he can't help the small smile that creeps it's was onto his face because look at u and Michael he's just so happy to have friends that you get along with and care about you so much that they're all trying their hardest to make sure you're okay like you're the most important thing in Lukes life and he's glad they care so much about you too and then he's brought back into reality as he catches your eyes, full of tears and ready to spill and he can hear Michael in his ear telling you to breath and trying to match your breaths and as he sees a single tear fall down your cheek he's suddenly back at his mic, hand in the air as he says to stop and Ashton being confused as ever because he can't see what's going on keeps going until Luke is literally yelling into his mic for Ashton to please stop. So he looks over to you before turning back to the whole crowd and, "hi guys I'm sorry to stop but Y/N is in the pit over here in front of Michael and she loves you all just as much as I do but she really doesn't do well with crowds so if you guys could back up his a little and give her some room maybe? Please? Un thanks guys I love you" and he takes his mic off the stand before making his way over to Michael and sitting next to him, letting his legs dangle off the edge. Michael is still looking you dead in the eyes telling you to breath and trying to match your breaths and it's working slowly but you're still nervous and suddenly you can't feel your whole body anymore and oh my god you've never had one this bad because you e always physically been with people who knew what to do and how to help and now Lukes blue eyes are piercing into your own and it's so easy to get lost in them it's almost helping you forget what's happening as he speaks Into the mic again, "come on babygirl, listen to Michael you can do it breath okay, drink the water you have I know it's in your bag drink it babygirl, you can do it were almost done and I can help you but I need you to breath okay? Please for me? Cmon I know you can do it, yeah? Yeah just like that in, out, in, yep just like that you got it see you're okay, you're okay I'm right here were almost done and you can come see me yeah? Yeah, okay see it's all better" and you're smiling slightly now and another stray tear drops down your face and you pull out the water you know he's talking about and drink almost half of it, nodding your head up and down as you look up at the two boys before you. "Yep that's it, you got it okay I'm gonna go back now, I love you" and you tell back that you love him too and yell a thank you to Michael as well but you don't miss the smile that spreads across Lukes face after you tell him you love him back and as your gaze lands back on Michael you can't help but blush at the wink he sends you because no one in the crowd knows it, but Michael does, that it was the first time Luke had told you he loved you, and it was then that you realized how much you loved the blue eyed, blond haired boy too.

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Honestly I don't even know what to say I feel so attacked and I'm the one who wrote it why do I do this to myself I gT GggGgGgGG

Also I didn't read this after I wrote it I just let my fingers type and I'm too lazy to read it again also I migHt cry if I read it Wut so sorry if it makes zero sense at all but it made sense in my head idk it's probably all over the place lbr