I can't help anyone
I'm just a fuckup
You tell me to leave you alone
And who could blame you?
I'm just a mess up.
I try to look out
once again I'm the problem
Breaking everything I touch
Wondering why it's like this
Why I ruin things
I'll leave you and be lonely
So you won't lose anymore of your sanity
I'll scream but no one will hear me
Suffering in this suffocating sanctuary in hell
Blinding me, begging and breaking me
Telling me to go
Telling me to stay away
For you
Pleading with my demons
Demanding I'll be damned dooming me with damnation
Praying for salvation
Praying for death.
One thing I can do right,
I can't even write to right the wrongs
I've written,
Down on this paper I say my goodbye
Don't feel bad for me
Don't feel anything for me
One.
I belong in hell
The hell I live through daily
Dosage of pain
Faking smiles for you
Two.
Broken mirrors hiding my reflection
from my direction,
depression dictating and taking over
from the inside, ruining my life
lifting my hope daily to be crushed
feeling my blood gush from these wounds I bleed.
Three.
I've hurt everyone I care about
but I don't even care about me
yet see my marks of three
that'll finish me
They'll be the last thing I see
I'll close my eyelids
Regardless of what's happening
Maybe I'll dream before I go
Gathering my thoughts one last time
Resting my head on my pillow,
Holding my notes,
Goodnight.
