It's been a couple of months since me and van last saw each other at my flat.
And it's been boring and weird since he wasn't in my life anymore.
"You sure you don't wanna go out tonight?" Steve asked i nodded "yeah mate, I'm just a little bit sick and that" i lied with a small crooked smile he nodded "yeah you work lots now more then after, you should take a break" he said grabbing some paper work that was laying around his desk
I looked at my hands playing with my bracelet "nah it's okay" i lied again looking up at him
He stopped doing what he was doing and nodded "alright if you says so- I'm heading home now goodnight, love" he said grabbing his bag "goodnight, Steve" I said as he walked into the lift.
I sighed looking at some photos i took at some gigs from last night
"These are class."
I turned around with wide eyes "Christ man, becky you scared me you know" I sighed turning my head to look at my laptop again "what ya' doing tonight then?" She asked sitting down spinning around
I closed my laptop and sat back in the chair
"Nothing."
"Why, everyone misses you"
"Cause i have lots of work and i don't feel like getting hammered every single night." I huffed
"Right, so what is it really?" She asked
She knew me too good.
"I want to start again" I said standing up
"What you mean?"
"I want a new start, i want to move, meet new people, say goodbye to the people here." I said putting my coat on looking at her
She knitted her black thick eyebrows together and opened her mouth to talk
"To me?"
I nodded slowly grabbing my bag and laptop
"To you also." I said walking to the lift
She stood up and followed me
"We're fuckin' best mates since kindergarten, mate we are Lexi and becky, can't leave me here" she said with a confused expression
"Where are you when i really need you then mate? No where to be seen- all you do these days is going out getting pissed and fuck random guys at a bar becky, i don't really know you anymore" i said she walked closer to me
"I fucking helped you with your drug addiction and booze addiction and now you start all over again, you know what's that like for me becky? You even realise that ? I went trough fire for ya' and-" I started
"Alright alright-"
"Nah mate, I'm not finished, i worked till ten in the evening and after that i went to your home and picked you up and dried your fuckin' tears becky! And after that you didn't show up for months at mine, and now when you are a fuckin' addict and a alcoholic-" I started but cut myself off by sighing "I'm moving becky, There's nothing you can do 'bout it" I said
I turned around "what about van huh? What about Steve?" She yelled stopping me
I turned my head to look at her and chuckled
"We weren't together." I said walking into the lift.
"So...your just leaving?" Steve asked
I sighed looking at the ground
"Well it's just not leaving isn't it? I have been talking 'bout this for a while now" i said
He nodded "well you gotta do what you gotta do innit? I'll miss you like hell but i understand you, can't be mad at ya' love" he whispered hugging me i smiled snd kissed his cheek
"I'll miss you too"
"So? We gonna do a big party at your or what?" He laughed i shook my head "I would love to just have a drink with only you, you know? I don't like those big party's and that, just me you and-" I started but cut myself off
I thought of Becky at that moment
"Just me and you" i chuckled standing up
"Right now?" He asked "well I'm leaving tomorrow aren't i?" I said he nodded standing up
We walked to my favorite pub that night talking about everything "and van?" He asked "Christ mate we haven't talked 'bout him in like what?" I said pulling my coat tighter around my body "I'm sorry i just- don't know you don't miss him?" He asked me as we walked in the pub "I don't know to be honest Steve, on the one hand I can't stop thinking about him and on the other i don't even want to think about him mate, I'm slowly gettin' over him"
- van's pov
"What's next?" Bob asked Dan
"Glasgow." He said standing up
"Man i love Glasgow, it's always dead sweet over there innit?" I said with a big grin on my face they nodded
Bob's phone rang as he grabbed it out of his pocket "yes, love?" He said
"Becky." Bondy said smirking
I swallowed as i heard her name.
It made me think of Lexi.
"Leaving? Why?" Bob said with a confused look on his face
"You can't stop her then?"
"Right."
I stood up grabbing a water bottle
"Nah i won't be there till next week, honey" he sighed
I opened the bottle "who's leaving?" I asked Dan who was sitting next to him
"Can't hear" he said knitting his eyebrows together "she wants to speak with ya" Bob said handing me his phone
I grabbed the phone and coughed "yes, hello?" I said sitting down "Lexi's is leaving." She signed "to where?" I asked with a confused expression on my face "I-I don't know, could be a different country I'm so scared I'll never see her again" she sobbed "listen lass, this may seems hard or anything but me and Lexi aren't together if it was on me i would fly over now and make her stay in Leeds but she won't let me and we haven't talked in months" i whispered looking outside
"Yeah, i- uh i understand" she whispered
I stood up and lighted a cigarette "can't you make her stay?" I asked "I'm afraid not, she doesn't want to see me or Steve or anyone" she whispered
Steve?
"The guy who fancied her?" I said walking outside "yeah that one." She whispered
I sighed "I'm so sorry love"
