Chapter 14

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I wake with the sunlight in my eyes. I squint trying to regain my vision. Once it's finally comes back, I see Josh still asleep peacefully across from me. I sigh and get up silently so I don't disturb him. I walk into the kitchen and grab my phone from the counter. I have a new text message from Laura.

It you got home And I wasn't there, it was because I had to come back to my house to finish my report for my wild life class. Anyway how did your date go with Josh? ~Laura
Well it was good. the next day though as I walked up to my car from dance class Debby Ryan (Josh's ex) was leaning on my car. She then said that she and Josh hooked up and we're getting back together. I got mad and called Josh to my apartment to yell at him. He told me that last night after our date he and Tyler went to a bar and Debby was there. She was trying to get Josh drunk so she could trick him into sleeping with her. I was quick to forgive and me and him ended up watching a movie. I asked him if he could stay over the whole night and we ended up sleeping in the same bed. ~Nora
Wow that's a lot to take in. So did you guys do it? 😏 ~Laura
No. And please never ask me that question ever again. ~Nora
What? Nora you're 26! Are you ever gonna consider it? ~Laura
I don't know okay. ~Nora
Ok and while you're here holding your virginty I'm here living my best life. Last night after I finished my report I decided not to go back to your place because you might already be back from your date and I didn't want to interrupt anything. So I ended up going to a bar and I met this guy named Brendon. (A/N: yes it is Brendon Urie 😜) he and his wife were having a fight and I guess he left. I'm laying right next to him right now and my legs are killing me. You can guess what we did last night. ~Laura
What am I ever gonna do with you? ~Nora
I don't know. And I have to go Brendon's waking up. ~Laura
K bye ~Nora
I shut off my phone and decided to start making breakfast. Since Josh is over I should make something nice. I open the fridge and grab a carton of eggs. I put the eggs on a pan and start whisking them. After 8 minutes they are done and I grab 2 plates to put them on. I then make me and Josh some orange juice and put that on the table along with some silver ware. As I'm putting my fork on the table, Josh walks in yawning loudly. I am turned away from him facing the wall when I feel someone touching my hips. I look up to see Josh smiling. "You didn't have to do that you know. I could have made breakfast. I make a really mean omelet you know." His voice is soft but scratchy. I smile. "No I didn't want to disturb you. You looked so cute when you were asleep." He laughs softly. "So what's for breakfast?" I look up into his eyes. "Scrambled eggs and orange juice. And don't think about blending it okay? I did it when I was 7 and it didn't end well." He laughs again and let's me go. I take a deep breath as me and him sit down at the table. I stare at the table and he finally breaks out silence after a couple minutes. "Hey about last night I didn't mean to-" I cut him off quickly. "No it's fine. I mean I kinda just met you and I-" He cuts me off this time. "No. I shouldn't have done that to you. I feel really bad. I'm a terrible person." He looks at where I'm staring at on the table. I quickly break my gaze and look up at him. He breaks his gaze as well and looks at me. "You're not a bad person Josh. You may have made a few mistakes but doesn't everyone? And what you did last night, you told me to believe in myself and ignore the haters. Why won't you too? And you're selfless too. You made me sit down when my feet were killing me when I tried to wait on you. You're a amazing person Josh. It's me that's the bad person. I yelled at you. I can't stop thinking about how we could have ended up if I didn't let you speak." I start to get really hot. "No I totally deserved it. I Shouldn't have went to that bar anyway." He shakes his head, staring at his plate. My eye sight starts to go blurry from tears. "Debby tricked you. Its not your fault. Its mine. It's all mine. Im a monster Josh. I'm a monster!" He looks up and realizes I'm crying my eyes out and pulls me into a bear hug. I sob into him and he kisses my head. I lift my head and look into his eyes. He looks back at me and we kiss for a short period of time. I lift my lips off of his and we stare at each other. "I'm not hungry anymore. I'm gonna go get a shower okay?" "Yeah. Go ahead. I'm gonna go get dressed in your room." I nod and
go to my room to pick out a outfit. Once I pick it out I take it to the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror. What is wrong with me? I wipe the tears from my face and undress to get into the shower. When I've finished I get out and out on my clothes. I do my makeup and walk out wearing this.

I go into the kitchen and open the fridge to get my unfinished orange juice

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I go into the kitchen and open the fridge to get my unfinished orange juice. I start gulping it really loudly when Josh comes in. His voice surprises me. "Hey I'm gonna head out okay?" I jump back from the sound of his voice and the orange juice gets stuck in my throat and I can't breathe. I start trying to yell for Josh and he runs toward me. I wave my arms around telling him I'm choking and he responds very quick. He goes behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. Every few seconds he slams by stomach trying to get the orange juice out of my throat. I gulp for air and when my vision starts to go dark, the orange juice comes out of my mouth and I spit it on the floor. Josh let's go of me and I collapse, trying not to vomit on the kitchen floor. I gasp for air. Josh squats next to me. "Oh my god Nora you could have died! You were on the edge of dying! I I-" He hugs me tightly and I hug him Back. It takes me a while but I manage to get a few words out of my mouth. "I'm ok though arnt I? If I wasn't I'd be dead." My voice is cracking as I speak. I let out a little laugh. His eyes fill with tears. "I wouldn't know what to do with myself if you died. I'd regret it my whole life and I'd probably take my own." He looks me in the eyes. "Don't ever say that. You told your fans to never give up on life and always try harder and try again. Listen to your own advice Josh." I say hugging him again. He nods. "You're right. And how do you know I tell my fans that?" He asks smiling. "I may have checked out your music. Love migraine and HEAVYDIRTYSOUL by the way." I flash him a devilish smile. "I love playing heavydirtysoul live. That and ode to sleep." I nod. "Sorry if I smell like throw up. I should go wipe up my shirt." I say standing up. "Yeah but I'm not sure if I trust you by yourself anymore." He says. "I'll be careful okay? And you're welcome to stay here whenever you want to." He nods. "I have to get going. Tyler wants to work at the studio with the new album he's writing. I'll see you Friday okay? Text me!" He says letting himself out of my door. I hear the door close and I groan. I know I have dance again and I don't want to go. I sigh as I walk back to my bedroom to hang out until I have to go at 10.

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