In The Name Of Love

Chapter 17

I just stand there, staring at the ground. Nothing comes out of my mouth. Thoughts run through my mind. What am I gonna tell Nora? How will she react? Will I even tell her? No Josh, that's lying to her. I can't do that no matter the situation. How am I gonna be a father? I'm not even prepared. I'm too young for this. I can't just leave her though. That would be mean. I just don't want to leave Nora. I hear Nora's beautiful voice and it takes me out of my gaze. "Hey Josh what's taking you long?" I hear her say behind me. I hear her footsteps walk behind me. I turn around. She looks from me to Debby. "What's she doing here?" She asks suspiciously. I wouldn't blame her either. "Josh wants to tell you something. And we were just leaving. Right Josh?" I swallow and stare at the ground again. "Josh what do you have to tell me?" Nora walks up to me and takes my face in her hands. I can't do it. I just can't. It will break her heart. This is too much. I look down at her ocean blue eyes. She looks at me sadly. "Nora, Can we talk in private?" She nods and says "Of course." I lead her to my room and shut the door. I turn back to face her. She sits on the bed and pats a seat next to her. I get the memo and quickly sit next to her. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" She asks staring at me. I turn to face her. "Nora..." I look into her eyes once again. Come on Josh just do it. Be a man. "Debby's pregnant. And It's mine. I can't just leave her Nora. I'm not that guy." Her eyes fill with tears and I feel a pain of guilt in my stomach. It starts twisting in knots and I feel like collapsing on the floor. She wipes her eyes. "It's okay I understand. I know you would never leave a girl like that if she was pregnant. I just don't want to loose you. You're the closet thing I've ever gotten to love and I just don't want to forget that even though we only met a few weeks ago." She laughs a little and I look her in the eyes. "So I guess this is goodbye then? Joshua William Dun, always know I love you." There. She said it. Those three words just make me feel worse. "I love you too." I silence her with a long,meaningful kiss. And right then and there, it felt like it was just us. No Debby, no baby to take care of, just us against the world. I start to tug her shirt. It's now or never. She pulls closer to me, as if it's a way of saying yes. I start taking off her shirt and she takes off mine. I grab her waist, and she starts to trail down toward my jeans. She unzips them and I kiss her head. She pulls them down and pulls away to take away her own jeans. I watch, memorized. After she done I grab her and pull her toward the bed. And the rest is history.

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At about 6 or 7, Nora falls asleep. She must be really tired I guess. I kiss her head and get out a scratchy "Goodbye Nora. I love you." And start putting my clothes back on. Once I'm finished I go outside to see Tyler and Jenna must have left. They probably heard us and decided to leave. I sigh as I grab my phone wallet and keys as I walk out the door to face my new unborn child.

~NORAS POV~
I wake quickly from my nightmare. In my nightmare, Debby was pregnant and Josh was the father. He ended up taking my virginty as we said out goodbyes one last time. I look around the room and realize it wasn't a dream. No. This isn't it. No it can't be. I grab my phone and look at the time. It's 11 AM. Where's Josh? No Nora. He isn't yours anymore. We weren't even dating. I can't hold it in anymore. I just can't. I force myself into a ball and start sobbing. It hurts. It really hurts. My legs ache from last night. I have a million stuff going through my head. He could come back and see my crying In his bed. The voice in my head says to get up and forget him. Come on Nora just do it. I get and pull one of his baggy long sleeved T-shirts over my head. I walk into his bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror. My face is red and blotchy. My eyes are baggy and red from tears. My hair is all messed up. My mascara is running. I look awful. That doesn't matter though. Nothing matters anymore. I wipe my snot on the sleeve and pick up my clothes to take with me. I pull on my jeans and throw my hair into a bun as I walk out of his apartment. Goodbye Josh. I will miss you.

~5 MONTHS LATER~
Ever since me and Josh said our goodbyes, I've been a mess. I started drinking to take all the pain away. Every single morning I wake hungover. I barely even care how I look anymore. I barely eat, or sleep. I haven't talked to anyone in months. I blocked everyone's number on my phone and deleted all of my social medias. I then slammed my phone on the table until it broke so no one could reach me. I run into the kitchen every night and chug a bottle of wine. I slump on the kitchen floor and cry histerically. I repeat the same routine every night and I can't stop it. My drinking habit had gotten worse and I'm considering going to rehab. What's the point anymore? I stopped my dance too. My only hope in life. Gone. That 13 year old probably took my place. So Many things have crossed my mind In the past few months it's almost crazy. All day I slump around the house with a bottle in my hand, drinking every chance I get. But one night, it gets out of hand. I drink 4 bottles of wine and that's all that it takes to get me terribly drunk. I start to loose my mermory as the liquid takes over me.

~JOSHS POV~
I haven't seen Nora in months and it's tearing me apart. Debby said she wants me to quit my career for her and our baby. I can't do that. Tyler would be heart broken. Speaking of which, I haven't seen him in months either. But I'm gonna have to face him soon because tour is coming up in a few months and I can't just ignore him. I started living with Debby in her apartment and nothing's the same. Every time she tries to get me to sleep with her I decline it. She seems really pissed about that. She says she thinks it's because of Nora and she's right. Nothing's the same without Nora. I've been wondering for months how she's doing. I asked Laura and she said she deleted all of her social medias and blocked her whole caller list. She doesn't seem to be doing anything. I'm actually quite worried about her and her safety. This can't end well.

~DEBBYS POV~
Ever since I took that pregnancy test, my life as been perfect. But everytime I try to get Josh in bed with me, he refuses. I always scold him because it's because of Nora. And it probably is. I hated that scummy bitch the second i met her at that arcade. Honestly Josh didn't even need her. She was terrible with press and she didn't even know how to treat Josh right. But I do. Today I have to go to the doctors for them to check the baby. The second they call my name in the waiting room, I jump out of my seat. Once I'm seated inside a room, I wait about a half a hour for the doctor to come. Multiple nurses checked up on me while I was waiting though, but I just ignored them. Once the doctor came in I got all excited. He walks up to me. "Hello Ms. Ryan, I'm Dale and I will be checking your baby. Now if you will, please get on the chair." I do as I'm told as he puts the blue stuff on my stomach. He hooks it up to the machine and the room goes silent. "So how's he/she doing?" I say trying to break the silence. He takes off his glasses and looks me in the eyes. "What's wrong? Are they okay?" I rub my stomach in caution. "I hate to break it to you Debby, but it looks like you have a histerical pregnancy." A WHAT? "You're kidding right? What even is that?" I say frustrated. "It's where you think you're pregnant but you actually arnt. You're trying too hard. Lay off the stuff for a while alright?" He says. This can't be happening. Josh will leave me for sure and go back running to Nora. This is the thing that tied him to me. How am I gonna play this one? A bunch of plans go through my head. Finally it comes to me. I'm gonna lie to Josh. I don't know what I'm gonna do when it's time for me to have it, but I'll figure it out sometime. Besides, I have loads of months. I just have to play it right.

A/N: DUN DUN DUN. Okay a lot of plot twists in that chapter. I'm actually really proud of myself lol. Thank you so much for 81 reads ILYSM!! Anyway yeah thx for reading bruhs