A Rose to Change a Life

#2 Devin

Elva strode out of the pub disshevelled, but still looking gorgeous, swaying her hips like mad, which she was not even aware of doing. I simply had to leave her a humerous note that suited my character, but how should I phrase it without sounding pathetic or like too much of an idiot? Geez, I was thinking like a girl now. I should KISS as in Keep It Short and Simple, sounds easier said than done though.... 

While she was still in there, doing god-knows-what, I came to my senses while I was pacing like a caged tiger. I know! I will impress her with my terrible drawing of a rose, that should make her heart melt. Not. It's worth a shot. I hastily scribbled my note, thinking about how to give it to her, and went back to my inconspicuous pacing.

After asking Elva if I could drop her off at a bus station she didn't react like I expected some other girls to, instead she held her composture and accepted it without so much as a nod. I believe that she was innerly sad about me leaving– I mean who wouldn't be sorry when having to end a ride on this beauty? Just kidding – but on the other hand I had the feeling that she tried to get me to cheer up or rather making me not feel guilty about it! Her, ME! Even though I was the one ruining the date! Of course I already knew from the beginning that she wasn't just a normal girl. I haven't heard of one who wore a 'If you are going to be a douche, get outta my face' shirt to the first date. Seriously, have you? She was full of surprises, like a present ready to unpack, but on which you had to tuck to get it to open. So far I managed to circumvent other people finding out about Steven and my grandparents , which I was glad about because it is not easy stuff to cope with, but I got used to to living after the quote by William Hazlitt, "The art of life is to know how to enjoy a little and to endure much."

This was the reason why I made such obvious moves towards Elva, something about her was off and that drew me to her. I know I sounded cheesy, but as long as they are just thoughts, I won't get laughed at by my friends. Ha. As if. Anyway, she hopped of the bike, however I didn't want her to go without giving her the note first, my body acted on impulse, wrapping an arm around her soft waist, pushing the note into the backpocket of her shorts, but hiding it in a move where my fingers touched her bare back for a second, making me ache for more. Apparently she didn't notice, but she

Rosecashier-A rose to change a life flinched. Just a tiny bit, barely visible if I hadn't watched her as closely. I didn't know why; but my frown got distracted by the way her hair smelled of tulips and and how my lips felt on her cheek, when I leaned in to give her a kiss. After I let her go, the absence of her body, radiating heat, was radical. The only thing that was left, was the soft fragrance of her still lingering in the air.

Life hadn't been easy for me and my brother, I would love to get him out of the house. If necessary I would live on the streets. I was not looking forward to driving back, fearing it actually and I was not scared easily. My bike already knew the way to the hospital by heart – yes, motor blocks could be hearts too – which I was not something to be proud of. The short version of what our neighbour told me in between frantic gasps was that an ambulance took my brother to the hospital shortly after he came home. My brother. The only thing left for me to love.

There was no need in telling me what had happened, I already knew because I experienced it often enough. I wouldn't just stand there watching my brother get hurt without interfering. They were so going to get yelled at today, I thought.

My body shook with rage, thankfully I had the pleasure of taking a piece of happiness with me, otherwise I don't know what I would have done. Elva calmed me enough to face this mess. I wasn't proud of my past actions, but I would do them again if the need arises. No hesitating. I would do anything.

Weren't therapists always blathering about thinking good thoughts to get your mind of your current situation? That's why, I thought of Elva, hoping she would call to  shine a bit of sunlight on me.