One Shots

Ronald x Suicidal.Reader: Smile (Black Butler) *Sad*

Short A/N: This may have triggers. I talk about killing people and suicide. So read at your own risk.

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You look into the icy water below the bridge. A cold wind blows through the area and you feel yourself shudder. As you think about the night a man taps your shoulder. You look at him blankly for a moment before looking back at the water.

This time he stands next to you and you watch him lean against the side. Giving you a smile, he seems to hold a slight sadness in his eyes. Your blank look does not change as you lean forward to look across to the next bridge.

"So what are you doing here miss?" he asks politely.

You don't look at him as you shrug slightly. It really wasn't like that. You know why you are here you just don't want to tell him. He sighs and gives you an even bigger smile.

"Is something bothering you right now miss? Can I at least get your name?" he tries again.

You look at him blankly again. Taking his appearance you try to guess why he is here. Blonde hair sweeps over his forehead. A little cow lick stands at his part and the sides of his hair appear black. Golden eyes examine you sadly.

You sigh and mumble, "(Y/N). (Y/N) (L/N)."

He looks at you curiously as he replies, "My name is Ronald Knox. You can just call me Ronald. Nice to meet you, (Y/N). So why are you here?"

The two of you lock eyes and you continue with your blank look. You don't blink as you stare him down. Keeping things to yourself is something you're good at. You have only told one person about what you have done and what you will do.

The fact that Ronald has shown up doesn't surprise you. You had already figured out that there were grim reapers, but you didn't have proof. You still aren't sure about Ronald so you break your eye contact and look back down.

"Why are you here, Ronald? I'm nobody you know. I'm not important. Why do you care?" you ask softly.

For a moment Ronald looks shocked. It is as if no one has asked him why he was there. He opens his mouth, then pauses.

"Why don't we go get a drink? How does that sound?" he counters.

You hesitate before nodding slowly. Ronald's face lit up a bit and he gives you a smile. You frown slightly and shake your head. You aren't sure why he would be so excited to give a random person a drink.

***

"So Grell is gender confused?" you ask Ronald after your second drink. "It just seems that way. How does a male have another male's babies? Is that possible?"

Placing your head on the table you keep a confused look on your face. You sigh and glance at Ronald. He has had the same smile on his face for a bit now. You aren't sure if you have seen him touch his drink but you don't care.

You slid off of your stool and reach into your pocket. Your (E/C) eyes are starting to show hints of worry and panic as you realise you misplaced your cash. You groan and start to mutter that you have no money when Ronald puts some on the table.

You look at him with a blank face before shaking your head. You don't feel up to wondering why he would be so kind or why he would pay for anything. What was he going to do? Get information about you? The thought makes you want to chuckle.

The two of you walk back to the bridge in silence. As you walk your thoughts start whirling inside your brain. You feel the shame and guilt of long past events and feel the burning hatred you have felt in the past. It seems like everything is just now catching up to you.