a letter a year // matty healy short fanfiction

3 - "i miss you a lot"

dear matty,
i'm officially eleven years old today. i haven't seen you in a long time now, but i hear you on the radio all the time. you're getting really famous, aren't you? i'm so, so happy for you. all my friends at school love the 1975.
i started secondary school a while ago, and i'm enjoying it. i think i mentioned my best friends from primary school in my last letter? we don't really talk anymore.
but i've got new friends, and so have they, and i think we're all okay. for my birthday i went shopping in oxford with my new friends, because no one really does parties anymore. we all went to an italian restaurant for dinner and had pizza and milkshakes, but afterwards mum got angry because she says i bought too many clothes and we can't afford them.
it's about midnight now, and i'm writing this in my bedroom with my bedside lamp turned on because i'm meant to be asleep. i can hear mum crying in her bedroom. it's not because of the money or clothes.
her and her boyfriend broke up, and it was awful. i'm so glad i didn't invite any of my friends back after the shopping because they wouldn't stop shouting.
they had a massive screaming row and he smashed a vase, then mum slapped him across the face so hard that his nose started bleeding. he left after that, and then mum went to her bedroom and started crying. it would be so so much better if you were here. i still remember you taking me out for my ninth birthday. it was the best day of my life. i miss you a lot, and i hope i can see you soon!!
and, by the way, what age are you supposed to get a boyfriend at? that sounds weird, but i can't ask mum right now. it's just that all the girls in my class at school talk about boyfriends, and a few of my friends already have them. no ones asked me out yet, except for this one muslim boy that everyone's scared of because they think he's a terrorist. i feel bad for him because he's nice and clever and he has beautiful eyes, but i would never date him because then people might hate me too.
so could you please write back soon to help me? i don't have anyone else to talk to about these things.
i'm not sure if you're getting these letters because you haven't replied yet, but i'm going to keep sending them. maybe your address has changed? but i think you would have told mum if it had, even though you two don't talk anymore. i should probably go to bed now because i have school tomorrow.
write me back!
i hope you had a really great year.
love, margo xxx