Dark and Dangerous

Secret

*DEMI'S POV*

I walked back into the living room and sat next to Louis again. Harry didn't mean that, he said it plenty of times before we were dating. I hated him so much.

"You ok? I'm sorry if I went too far.", Louis babbled.

"Don't apologize. Harry just doesn't like me being touched by anyone other than him.", I rolled my eyes.

Harry emerged from the bathroom and went upstairs to his room. Perrie looked at me with the 'are you ok' look and I nodded. I'm not ok, it's just that I don't like showing emotion. I'm not used to showing any kind of feeling anymore.

That's why Louis is so interesting. when our lips collided I felt a burning sensation everywhere like I was on fire. it was a good kind of burn though.

We continued the game of truth or dare until Perrie and shaniqua left. or was it shelly? forget that shit, I will call that bitch whatever.

I went to check on Harry and he was asleep. something on his nightstand caught my eye. a journal. I quietly krept into his room and picked it up.

The first page was written on the day after we broke up.

December 17, 2010

Demi hasn't even tried to contact me. usually if we fight she'd at least text me. this time, I'm afraid she's gone for good.

I didn't want to hook up with Natalie, she kept threatening to tell Demi. I know that she would've been shattered worse than she was if Natalie told her herself.

I've been feeling so depressed... I don't know what to do anymore. Demi was my everything. she may not have realized it but I'm barely breathing without her.

I want to end it, and give up. I just can't handle life without Demi. maybe I'll wait a few days. maybe she'll come back so that I can show her that she means a lot more than she thinks to me.

The light switched on and I hid the book behind my back and looked at Harry.

"What d'you want?", he snapped.

"I just wanted to check on you. I'm sorry about earlier.", I said.

"I know.", Harry looked down at his hands.

Does he realize that I have his journal? probably not. I tucked it in the back of my sweatshirt and left his room.

I went in the living room and sat on the couch while Louis, Niall, Liam, and Zayn played FIFA.

I noticed that Louis was kind of distracted. by me. he paused the game and asked to talk to me.

"So um... Demi...", he smiled. "I was wondering if you would like to go out with me?"

I froze for a second. I weigh the pros and cons and decide to say yes. Harry just can't know. he will surely kill Louis.

"Harry can't know about us.", I stated.

Louis walked out of his room and did a weird happy dance making me giggle.

"Shit.", he mumbled.

We went back downstairs. Harry ran down and frantically looked under pillows and the chairs around the room.

"Ok guys, this isn't funny. where is it?", he asked running his hands through his hair.

"What?", Niall asked.

"My journal. I told you I don't trust anyone with that. if you don't give it back I will have your ass!", he shouted.

Oh shit. he looked at each one of them then me. I think he's onto me.

"I know that one of you guys took it to mess with me.", he laughed sarcastically. "this isn't funny."

Ok that's my cue to leave.

"Where are you going?", Harry glared.

"I'm leaving. it's late.", I said.

It really is late. he rubbed his temples and said goodbye along with the other boys.

I went home and texted Perrie right away.

*louis and I are dating.*

My phone buzzed seconds later.

*oh my god! you two are perfect. does Harry know?*

I explained that he could never know. if he ever found out he would be so upset with me. I also mentioned that I stole Harry's journal. wow I really need to reevaluate how I make decisions.

We talked for a few more minutes. I took out Harry's journal and read the first page a few more times. I want to read more, but I'm scared. what is in here?

He was really angry when he saw that it was gone. Is he trying to hide this from everyone he knows? the shit in this journal must be pretty damn personal. I mean he's always been kind of secretive but he really flipped out.