Dark and Dangerous

Denial

*HARRY'S POV*

I continued to cry until I heard footsteps. I feverishly wiped my eyes and tried to remain calm.

Louis and Demi stood in front of me. Demi was swallowing and blinking rapidly. she stared into my eyes and hers began to water.

"Harry, I don't have any feelings for you. stop trying because it's not going to happen.", she sniffled.

In that moment, I felt like all the air in the room disappeared and time froze. I felt the tears start again. this time just let them roll down my cheeks and onto the floor.

Demi mouthed "I'm sorry" and walked back upstairs with louis. I went into my room, closed the door, then locked it. I got my journal that Demi probably read through, and turned to the next clean page.

I scribbled words full of pain until I filled four pages. now I can't help but wonder if Demi was just saying that to be with louis.

I read through what I had, it sounds more like a suicide note than a random journal entry about my feelings.

~

Today, Demi told me that she didn't have any feelings for me. she didn't just say it. she looked me right in the eyes. I know that hooking up with Sophia was very wrong.

I can't help but feel like Demi was telling the truth. I can hear her crying from down here,but I think realization hit her.

She's finally over me and I can't do anything about it. I mean she clearly stated that she did, in fact want me. I really wish I could go back to the night of the party and let her fuck me.

She would be mine right now, if that was the case. Now that she said the she doesn't feel anything for me, I can't help but think about the kiss Demi and I shared at the gym.

She was so upset when I told her about Sophia. I'm going to dump her after I finish writing this. will this constant pain ever go away?

The kiss was sudden. her lips moved feverishly over mine. my heart rate quickened and I started sweating worse than when I was lifting those weights.

I thought Demi's excuse for falling was ridiculous. a pigeon? she wasn't even looking out the window. was she staring at me?

I mean I was watching her before I went to lift weights. She was watching me and was so distracted that she forgot about the treadmill.

I saw the way her blue orbs turned dark and her pupils dilated as they raked up my torso and stopped at my lips.

She looked into my eyes and back to my lips. she wet her and molded them to mine. she wrapped her arms around my neck then I came to the thought of Sophia and felt guilty so I pulled away and told her.

Then she explained that she was also with someone. so I ruined that moment of pure bliss. I always seem to ruin perfect little moments like those.

I'm not going to ruin anyone else so I guess I better just leave or avoid everyone. maybe I should just kill myself. I feel this numbness inside of me and it's unbearable.

This must be why Demi has changed so much. even though she does look very different, when I stare into her deep blue eyes I see the girl that I broke. I still love her.

~

I set my journal on the nightstand and went downstairs, after grabbing my jacket and keys. Just because I'm hurt and broken and numb doesn't mean that I can't have some fun.

*DEMI'S POV*

I continued to cry until I felt Lou's lips on my neck. I calmed down a bit when his lips trailed up to the spot under my ear and sucked lightly.

"Lou Harry was so sad. I feel really bad.", I said.

"It's alright, he's a good lad.", Louis smiled sympathetically.

Wow that whole conversation rhymed. I am really glad that that doesn't happen all the time. damn it!

"That entire conversation rhymed.", Louis stated with a light smile.

"I'm going to check on harry. he took that pretty hard."

"Okay love. tread lightly.", Louis said.

I walked down the hall to Harry's room and saw he wasn't in there. I looked around and noticed his keys and the jacket that he likes to wear were gone.

I saw his journal was open. I picked it up and read the four newly written pages. Harry is gone and he feels the way I did before I ran into him at the party.

He feels numb and broken. I hope he isn't doing anything stupid. I know that I'm going to have to go after him anyway.

Oh well. hours pass by, I'm still at the house and Louis and everyone else is asleep. I get up and put on my pants and shirt then grabbed my phone and purse then sneak out.

As I was walking out, I saw Zayn and Niall helping someone. they had their arms wrapped around the person's waste and helped him hobble along.

They stepped into a lighted area and revealed Harry. he was coughing blood and could barely breath by the looks of it.

"Demi, help.", he gasped and closed his eyes.

"What happened?", I asked.

"He was messing with a group of guys and they beat the shit out of him.", Zayn said looking at his hands.

"We have to get him to the hospital.", I said.