Chandler Riggs/Carl Grimes Imagines (REQUESTS OPEN)

How To Save A Life (Imagine 10, Carl)

(*Trigger warning, suicidal thoughts*)

(Y/N) P.O.V.

There's nothing left. What's the point of living in a world like this, knowing you're bound to get eaten alive by walkers or murdered by other people. I would rather die my way then give something the satisfaction of taking my life. I know some will miss me, Carl especially, but he'll move on. He'll find a new best friend that's mentally stable.

I'm gonna do it tonight, and I know just how. I'll leave him a note, apologizing for being so weak. I don't want to be heard, so I'll sneak a silencer for my gun from the armory. I began writing Carl his goodbye note. The note wasn't just for him, it was also my acceptance of my choice. I was sure what I wanted.

-Later that night- (Carl's P.O.V.)

I slumped into my house, tired from watching the walls all day. Walking into my bedroom, ready to flop onto my bed, I noticed a note neatly folded on my pillow. I didn't have to open it to know it was from (Y/N). Her neat handwriting spelled out 'Carl' on the front. My stomach turned as I slowly unfolded the paper.

"Dear Carl,

Before I say anything, I just want to tell you I'm sorry. I'm too weak, not cut out for this world. I don't want to keep you on the edge of your seat, so I'll just say it. I ran off with my gun. I'm taking my life as you're reading this. Don't bother finding me, dead or alive. I know you'll move on and be ok. You'll make new friends. I won't matter eventually.

Once again, I'm sorry,
-(Y/N)"

No, no, no. She can't do this. I grabbed my hat and my gun and ran.  A part of me knew exactly where to look for her. We used to climb over the walls and read comics together on a fallen tree.

I scaled the wall and started running to our spot. I had to catch her before she made this mistake. I hadn't heard any gunshots so I thought I was safe. But something in the back of my mind told me she was smart enough to take a silencer with her. Of course she did, she didn't want to be found.

I eventually reached the place I was running to. I wasn't too late. She sat on the ground, gun pressed to her temple, crying. Once I reached her I snatched the gun from her hand, pulled her to her feet, and held her tightly. "What are you doing, (Y/N)?" I didn't know I was crying until I heard my voice.

"I can't do this anymore, Carl. I can't live like this," she sobbed into my shoulder. Hearing her say that tore my heart into pieces. She didn't know, but I loved her as more than a friend.

"Don't do this, let me help you," I offered. She pulled out of my grasp and backed away.

"There's nothing you can do. What's the point of living in this world. You need to respect that I don't want to be here anymore. There's nothing to live for," she pleaded for me to understand. In a way I did. But I wasn't about to let her go.

"Then let me give you something to live for," I whispered. I pulled her closer by the waist and leaned in. She was too shocked to move, she didn't stop me. I gently pressed my lips against hers. She tensed, but soon relaxed and kissed me back, wrapping her arms around my neck. Our lips moved in sync as I gave her all I had. After we pulled away I pressed our foreheads together. "Don't leave me, please."

"Carl-" she started. I interrupted.

"(Y/N), you can't leave, I love you. Let me help you, please. I can't lose anyone else," I pleaded. She separated our foreheads and looked straight into my eyes. She nodded, giving herself a second chance.

"I'm sorry, I was scared."

"I know sweetheart, it's gonna be okay," I said as I pulled her into another hug and kissed the top of her head. She snuggled into my chest and held onto me like her life depended on it. In a way it kind of did.

"I love you too," she whispered. I smiled to myself and held her tighter.

"Let's get you home, you should rest," I suggested.

"Will you stay with me?"

"I wasn't planning on leaving," I smiled. She surprisingly smiled back. It was good to see her happy again. We started walking in the direction of Alexandria, my arm draped around her shoulders.

I had managed to give her hope, help her see the light in a dark world like this. I had saved her life.

(A/N) Hey walkers! I don't know about you guys but I'm kinda proud of this one. If you would like me to attach more music to my imagines, let me know. See ya in the next update!