The Loved One || j.b.b

CHAPTER 15: GUILT

"The real question is, who is the traitor inside the SHIELD HQ." Tony said.

Natasha seemed pretty deep in her thoughts and Bucky clenched his fist. "We will find those bastards and cut their sticky heads of." You said suddenly getting really angry. Those beasts had brainwashed you and Bucky and they made you killed your best friend. If you didn't have to do it for the world, you had to do it for Steve.

Silence was spread in the room when Tony broke it. "Okay slater, you take capsticle 2 and Nat here. You guys have the action team and I am the action backup and the search guy. I hate to say that but I will do the research." Tony said.

You and Bucky went down to the gun room. He picked his favourite snipers and a pair of pistols and you picked your favourite refile. Natasha recharged the electro things on her suit and picked out two small pistols to have in her leg-hollisters.

Tony called Bruce and they started working on the research  while you started  yoga with Natasha. Wanda had told you that yoga helps with control and that would help you with your powers.

Bucky went to the roof. His favourite place when he is upset. He says that it helps him think positive when he sees the whole city from above. I guess now he was upset because of Steve. He may not be mad at me for what I did but I am. I will never look at him the same knowing that I was responsible for the death of his beat friend.

HYDRA had taken so much from Bucky, his whole life actually and now Steve is dead too. I will never forgive myself for that. If I hadn't joined the Avengers, none of these would have happened. Bucky would still have Steve and I would still be able to look at him the same way.

"(y/n)!" Wanda shouted at me and broke me out of my horrible thoughts. I noticed that I didn't do my yoga exercises, instead I was lying on the floor facing the ceiling. I had no clue for how long Wanda had been shouting my name...

"(y/n). Stop it." Wanda said. "You know you can't blame yourself for what happened. It was HYDRA, not you." I sighed. "She is right (y/n), you can't blame yourself for doing something without being able to control yourself." Natasha joined. I stood up and looked at them.

"They were my hands that killed him Natasha!" I shouted tearing. "They weren't SHIELD's, they weren't HYDRA's..." now I was whispering with tears blocking my vision. "They were mine... my hands..." I whispered and looked at them. Wanda hugged me and said: "(y/n), Bucky knows it was HYDRA. He has been through this and knows what's like. He has forgiven you." Natasha nodded. "But I can't forgive me Wanda... and Bucky didn't kill his boyfriend's best friend..." I said.

"Miss (y/n), miss Natasha, miss Wanda, Mr. Stark has made some progress on his research and wants everyone at the meeting room." FRIDAY's robotic voice said over the loud speaker...