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"Yoongi hyung, I need to talk to you." Jungkook knocks on Yoongi's studio door a few times, waiting patiently for Yoongi to answer.

"What?" Yoongi answers in his monotonous voice after opening his door, greeting Jungkook with an annoyed face. Jungkook roam his eyes on Yoongi, taking a clear look at him, then a frown appeared on his face. Yoongi's a mess, and his room, Jungkook can only say it's 'disaster'.

"H-Hyung are you okay? You look unwell. And.. I-Isn't that b-blood?" Jungkook's eyes went wide after looking at Yoongi's hands. His hands were covered with blood.

"What do you want?" Yoongi hide his hands behind him, giving Jungkook a stern look.

"H-Hyung let me put some med-"

"Don't bother me, kid. You're wasting my time." Yoongi says as he reach the door's knob, trying to close the door but being cautious Jungkook is, he quickly blocks the door from closing with both his hand and feet.

"H-Hyung.. what will happen to us?" Jungkook stare at Yoongi sadly, letting out those tears that he's been holding since earlier.

"J-Jungkook." Yoongi gasps at the sudden tears escaped from Jungkook's doe-eyes.

"This group is not the same anymore. Like how Namjoon hyung would take cigarettes and ignore me. Like how Tae keeps on skipping meals and came home with uninvited bruises all around his body. Like how Hoseok hyung keeps having nightmares and need to take sleeping pills to let himself fall asleep. And like how Jimin would always go out clubbing and end up being drunk when he's home. H-How.." Jungkook cries, sobbing while Yoongi only stand still infront him, not knowing what to do.

"Jungkook-ah.."

"H-How can Jin hyung face us if he see us like this? He would blame himself for leaving us a-and.. and how am I supposed to tell him this? He gave me the responsibility to take care of you guys but I didn't manage to take care neither any of you. Everyone would just push me away just because I'm the youngest." Jungkook fall on his knees, cupping his face.

Yoongi bent down his knees, hugging the now mess Jungkook, whispering a 'sorry' and 'Hyung's here now', making Jungkook hugs him even tighter than before.

"Hyung's sorry, Jungkookie. Mianhaeyo.."

Yoongi keeps hurting himself after Jin's death. Jungkook knew he can't stop Yoongi, because he doesn't know how to. He'd saw Yoongi's studio room earlier. His studio is a mess, broken bottles and glasses, crumpled papers around his room. 'Why hyung? Why?' Jungkook's mind screams, asking for answers.

"Please don't turn out into the old you again, hyung.." Jungkook begs.

"You know I can't Jungkook, I'm sorry.."