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"J-Jungkookie.. I need water." Hoseok calls weakly in his room.

"Wait, I'll go get it." Jungkook says as he walks to the kitchen from his room. Jungkook's room is next to Hoseok's so it's easier for him to hear Hoseok calling him from the latter's room.

He take a glass on the kitchen's cabinet and pour some water into it. Then, he slip in into Hoseok's room, along with a glass of water, holding it carefully to prevent it from falling.

"Hyung, here's your water." Jungkook set the glass on the stand beside Hoseok's bed and help him up to fix his posture so that Hoseok can drink the water.

"Jungkook, I'm not that sick. I can handle myself." Hoseok says as he coughs a few times before taking a glass bottle that contains his sleeping pills on the stand beside him.

"As if you're saying the truth hyung. You can't even walk properly, now you're claiming that you're fine?" Jungkook sighs as he pass Hoseok the water.

"I just need some rest and I'll be fine Jungkookie." Hoseok ruffles Jungkook's hair and give a smile.

"Hyung, you know that you can't just lay on your bed everyday, like this. You need to have some fresh air. You can't just stay in here and sleep all the time. And didn't you just take the pills a few hours ago?" Jungkook asks, narrowing his eyes towards Hoseok, slightly worried.

"I-I want to fall as-sleep again.." Hoseok mutters as he push the cap of his medicine bottle, letting it slightly open. He try to take the pills but before the pill could even fall on his palm, Jungkook snatch the bottle away from his hand, letting Hoseok frown at the action.

"No, this is not the right way. You know you can only take this pill twice, one for the day and one for the night. But you don't even care, you just swallow it more, and more each time you wake up just because of your nightmares." Jungkook stare at Hoseok, scanning the older's face. He look so pale like he's going to face the death anytime soon. His lips chaps alot too, because of the lack of water he has taken.

"Please Jungkook, I want to sleep again.." Hoseok give a stare at Jungkook's eyes, mentally begging Jungkook to let him sleep.

"You've been sleeping for almost 14 hours, I can't let you take this and sleep again. Your body system will end up damaging if you keep doing this hyung!" Jungkook yells, scaring out the shit of Hoseok a bit as Jungkook stand up and hold the latter's hand, trying to make him stand up from his bed.

"What are you doing?" Hoseok sighs as he look at Jungkook, trying to pull his hand away from Jungkook's grip.

"You need to take some fresh air, I don't want you to lay here and sleep like someone dead." He says as he give help to Hoseok with his stands.

Hoseok push Jungkook's hand away as he shake his head slowly, letting Jungkook know that he doesn't want to do so.

"Please, leave me alone. I want to sleep again.." Hoseok begs as he lay back on his bed.

"Do you really want to do this?"

Hoseok take his duvet and cover himself, shifting his position so that Jungkook would only facing his back.

"Just go.."

"Then what? You will cry and take the pills and sleep and having nightmares and just doing the same thing all over again right?" Jungkook shake his head, disappointed with Hoseok's actions.

"Hyung, you need to accept the fate that he's gone, that Jin hyung has leave us. You need to be strong, you need to-"

"How? H-How Jungkookie, How.. How can I try to be strong when I can't even accept that fact? T-This room reminds me alot of our good memories together. The pink wall, the figurines, the scent, everything about him is still here, in this room! How can I... How can I accept the fate that he's gone when he's been giving me love and care? I won't ever forget about everything that he has done to me, he was the one who is there during my hard times, he was the one who keeps assuring me that everything's going to be fine. He's my big brother that I really love. It's hard Jungkook, it's really hard.." Hoseok cries out his lungs, holding tightly one of Jin's favourite pink sweater in his long slender fingers.

"Jin hyung told me something, a week before he died. He told me that he loved you so much, he cared about you and thought of you as his own brother. He told me to always cherish you and make you happy, take a good care of you and always be with you because he said that you need someone to always be by your side in your good or hard times. I never really understand at first why is he telling me this when he's not going anywhere, but now I get it why.."

Hoseok cry out even louder, hitching breaths as he sobs.

"Hyung.. You need to think of Jin hyung. What would he say if he see you like this? You know that he doesn't want you to be weak, he always told you to be strong even when you're in hard times right? What would he think if he see you lying here, crying and taking those shits like this? Overdosed? Think of how sad he would be, how disappointed he feels because of you. Hyung, you need to be strong. You know, I'm always here for you." Jungkook says as he hugs Hoseok tightly, caressing the latter's hair with love, letting the latter cry in his embrace.

'I need to fix this, Jin hyung.'