Have you ever taken the time to say all the bad shit that is your relationship. Your family , your friend , boyfriend , husband. The bad shit, the stuff that you think but never say out loud.
Today is the day that I did. I had my period and I know that is suppose to be a horrible time. Things hurt your hormones is out of balance and things are extra funky. I was tired and 4 and 1/2 hours into my 7 and 1/2 shift I had a thorough breakdown about my life, my family , my friends to one of my coworkers. I felts so down and overwhelmed and my mind could only pull out negative things out of the magic hat. The pretty cute bunnies and flowers just things that I don't want to deal with. Things that make me sad and cry all that frustration into word which I spoke to someone I barely knew.
I felt horrible and I just had a fight with my boyfriend the day before and......
I realized that the stress was overwhelming , I couldn't function properly and I needed a break. I needed to talk to someone. So I called apon the magic diary where I could write my frustrations upon but I didn't kame it there. My boyfriend caught me right in the nick of time so we could talk it out.
I do have a point for writing this mind you and here it is. I know that sometimes things get emotional, you get overwhelmed, overworked, unappreciated and you feel unloved and unmotivated. Those are indicator that something has to change. Something is wrong and you have stop falling and wake the fuck up. You will literally feel down and depressed but cliché(wake the fuck up ) talk it out write it out. Get yourself out of that space take a walk. Do something else because your relationships are extras on your life they should help and enriched you not break you.
Its ok to take a time out. To be by yourself to figure things out. Never apologized for feeling the way you do but get up and change what you can.
