I'm going to try to do this at least once a day ok . Don't count on me making it because I suck at writing my life story although I live in my own imagination but not for a while now.Things are so overwhelming and being an adult kinda suck. I have school (5 classes) a boyfriend and 2 jobs. YOU KNOW WHEN YOU NEED SOMETHING TO WORK AT ALL COST.I need this to work (at all cost but maybe I'm a bit dramatic. 😅😅😅😅😅(a lot) .I'm here thinking this might actually work I'm always on my phone at least that's what alex loves to say.
Alex:"Babe your on your phone all the time"
I glared at him across the car.
"I do not, I just want to now because I just spent 8 hours working and I didn't touch my phone once ".
Alex: you always do this why cant you be in the car with me and enjoy this.
I closed my phone and sadly held his hand while in my head I was furious with myself and him. It's not that I don't want to spent time with him its just well I am truly a social media geek. I love watching what kim Kardashian is doing and is Kanye being outrageous again. who lost there wife who cheated on who. who the hell is Sophia Richie and why is Justin Bieber obsessed with her.
Its a guilty pleasure and I also love trash TV. Some people don't I do, love and hip hop , the housewife's although more than half of them are single. I live for the gossip and im ashamed no more.
Seriously I love social media I have always been fascinated by people and how they interact. I'm born in the 21st century I get to see a whole new medium where people share stories, the news, racism, bullying, oh, the joys of the Internet. I love the entertainment industry 😍😍 music ,shopping (when it's not with my own money) movies ,anime, food and just live life.I love freedom to love live and experience. I feel our duty in this world no matter how fleeting is to experience it and if you find someone that loves you and want to experience the world together that's your soulmate.🌹❤️💓💘That doesn't mean that you will always agree on everything (that's no fun ) but it mean you have compromise that's ok.
That is where alex comes in . He is a total dork loves anime and movies and his xbox is his life. We met online tinder (seriously). Everyone just wants to sex you up on there but he sounded like a no string attached type of guy and looked middle eastern with a thick beard and a unibrow he stole my heart. Currently the unibrow is gone and the beard is shaped and trim. Honestly the best feature about alex is his jaw line and how he much he doesn't take himself seriously. I love that about him.Alex has depression insomnia paranoia and that is challenging to say the least but I love him to pieces.
On our first date I was skeptical but now I am learning how to love someone special and how much of myself I am willing to give and take in a relationship. I give a lot of myself for someone whose scared of love because it can be taken away but I'm taking a lot also. I found out I am not without sin I am sometimes anoying needy and I exadurate a lot.I feel things like a women deep and immense I take things to heart if I care about you and I'm willing to give the world to the people I love even if I end up unhappy in the end.😢 basically life is kicking my ass physiological , emotionally and physically. ...I need to survive this fall please God help me out.
